Traitor [J.JK]

I will never love you again....

JK's POV

I'm feeling guilty and disappointed in myself. I heard door opening sound. I thought yoongi or taehyung must be here torture me or maybe kill me. But when I glanced at the door I got shocked to see yu-jin. I again looked down at the ground. I don't have courage to look in her eyes. She sat infront of me as yoongi left both of us alone to give some privacy maybe. 

I heard her calling my name. It feels good hearing my real name from her mouth. Because I've been listeneing her calling my pet name since I met her. I had reason of not telling her my real full name. 

Yu-jin:- Jungkook......

I finally looked at her. Because I know if I will not look in her eyes then she will not say the things she wants to say. I again got lost in her beautiful chocolate brown eyes. Just like I did when for the first I saw her in that alley. Yes, It was me who saved her back then from that creep. I killed that bastard also after she left from there. She is looking at me with love and care. While I'm looking at her with hatered and anger. Actually "Fake" hatered and anger. 

These emotions which I'm showing her is fake except from my love. I'm faking this because I want her to be far away from me. I'm telling myself to hate her because I can't love her. I want her to fall out of love. But I know she will never fall out of love. Because both of our hearts are now connected with each other. They are sticked to each other like someone has sticked them with super glue which can never be seperated from each other. 

My silly heart and my ego. Both are stupid. My ego betrayed her and lied to her and my heart is still beating for her. I came out of my thoughts when she asked me.

Yu-jin:- Why did you do that jungkook??

Hardest question of my life. I don't know what reason to give her. 

Yu-jin:- Tell me. I want to know. 

JK:- I.....I had reasons. 

Yu-jin:- So tell me the reasons.

JK:- Main reason is my ego..! My ego made me do this. My mind made me do this. I could only think about that fucking mafia position that time. Nothing else..! But now I'm regretting all this. I wanna go back in time and I wanna fix every wrong thing I did...!! I'm guilty!! I feel disappointed in myself!! 

Yu-jin:- No... You are not guilty. Neither you feel disappointed in yourself.. I can see hatered and anger in your eyes for me!! You are hating me!!! 

JK:- Yes!! I'M HATING YOU!!!

Yu-jin:- Why are you hating me?!?! WHY?!?!!?

JK:- BECAUSE I FUCKING DON'T WANT YOU TO LOVE ME!!!! I want you to fall out of love!! I'm forcing myself to hate you! But I can't!! Because I fucking love you so much!!! And I also know you also love me but you hate me also.

Yu-jin's POV

I looked at him with shocked and surprised expression. He still love me. I can't say that It's false that I don't love him. I also love him from the bottom of my heart. But I can't admit that fact.

Yu-jin:- I don't love you. I hate you. You used me jungkook, I will never love you again. 

I stood up from the chair and started to make my way out. I stopped on my track as I heard him mumble sorry. I again started to make my way out. As soon as I came out I immediately ran to my room. I opened the door before locking it. I slide down the door as my tears started to fall. I pulled my knees to my chest and buried my head. I shouldn't cry but I can't stop my tears from flowing.  

TO BE CONTINUED.........