~Lost And Found~ Bucky Barnes

NIGHTMARES AND COMFORTS

As night came, our body felt the urge to rest, to lay on bed and wait for what would come the next day. We got to the room and there was only a single bed and I immediately felt empathy towards Bukcy and decided to offer him the bed.

"Bucky, you should take the bed," I said with a concern look on my face. "You need proper rest, especially after what you've been through."

He shook his head, not accepting my kind offer. "No, I can't," he replied. "The floor...i'm more comfortable there and I'm used to it. It's where I've spent so many nights."

Sadness and pain washed over me as I heard him say that. I reached out, gently touching his arm. "Bucky, you don't have to punish yourself. You deserve this bed more than I do."

He looked at me, surprise crossing his face. "But... you deserve the bed, a restful sleep," he murmured.

I smiled softly, my hand still resting on his arm. "I've seen and heard how Hydra treat you all and I want to treat you better than them. Take the bed."

Silence filled in the room that very moment. Without knowing what was happening, he placed  himself on the floor. "Bucky...." I said with pain in my voice. I couldn't bear to see him alone in his pain, so I made a decision... I joined him on the floor, spreading out a blanket beside him. "You're not alone in this, Bucky," I whispered.

He turned to look at me, his face full of joy "Thank you," he whispered, his voice barely audible.

I smiled at his soft voice that soften my heart knowing that he was always a good man but manipulated into a bad guy. My eyelids started getting heavy and sleep took me away immediately. Everything was going well until the  sound of Bucky's  screams  waking me up from my sleep. I looked around me and saw that I was on the bed. I decided not to question myself on how I got on the bed and rushed to Bucky.

Rushing to Bucky's side, I gently shook him awake, his eyes filled with the nightmare. In his disoriented state, he held his hand around my throat hurting me.
"It's me, Bucky," I managed to say . "You're safe now. You're not alone."

His eyes widened in horror  he realizing he was hurting me, releasing his hold on me with trembling hands. Guilt washed over him.
Instinctively I wrapped my arms around him, pulling him into an embrace. "It was just a dream, Bucky," I whispered.

He held me tight, his trembling body against mine.
As the minutes passed by, Bucky's breathing gradually calmed down. After pulling from the embrace, he finally found the strength to share the nightmare.
"I dreamed of Hydra... of their
torture," he murmured, his voice filled  fear. "But this time, they had you too. I couldn't save you. I couldn't protect you."

After hearing his dream, I spoke softly with a calm voice. "Bucky, that nightmare was just a cruel torment of the past. We're here, together, far away from Hydra. We are safe."

Slowly, the tension left, leaving us with a certain safety and security. Yet, a question was still in my mind. I needed to understand why I  found myself on the bed. "Bucky, why did you let me sleep on the bed?"
A smile touched his lips"You needed it more than me. I wanted you to have a peaceful rest."

I shook my head, refusing to accept his reasoning. "No, Bucky. You need the bed more than I do." He kept disagreeing and I had no other choice but to lay on the floor covered in the blanket I gave bucky. I could feel him smile and he placed himself on the floor. As his back faced mine, we drifted into a peaceful sleep. We needed enough energy for the next day.

Obviously I couldn't sleep, I was having restless night. I immediately need to drink something and thirst led me to the kitchen, where I reached for a glass of water. But as I took a sip, I saw a computer in my bag that I took while escaping from Hydra. I opened the  computer, the Avengers, were in search of me, calling me a traitor.

After what I did it's obvious they had to call me a traitor but they didn't know that I was forced to do it.... It was against my will.  "I had no choice but to deceive them, to play this dangerous game."

Emotions filled me—guilt for the lies I said , manipulated them and destroyed the trust they had in me. I had to steal from them to save my life and Bucky's but I only made it worse for him making him kill innocent people. I want to show them that I changed and I wasn't with them anymore.... But I don't think they would like to hear me out after what I did to them.

I wanted to close the computer but had a decision in my mind..... Clearing Hydra's database and all. I started my work but with no success. I only wasted hours of my time just to be hacked and my computer got blocked. I cursed under my breath and close the computer.....
We needed to leave this place as soon as possible... Hydra might been the one to hack my computer and might track us.... But I needed to stay far away from the avengers. I didn't want them to catch me and Bucky. I want to protect him at all cost. I want him to start a new life...