Barricades of Sincerity (Kaisoo)

Introduction

Barricades of Sincerity
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Warning: Angst & mpreg.

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"That's all for today's check up. Please come back next week for the ultrasound. Drink your vitamins on time so that your baby would come out from your little tummy a healthy baby girl."

Jongin looked at his husband and held his hand. He smiled at him and glanced at the doctor.

"Expect me to be here next week. Thanks, doc!"

He then giggled. Kyungsoo just smiled firmly at the cute guy in front of him together with his husband.

"I wonder how our baby would look like, Jonginnie? I'm so excited to see her!"

Jongin just laughed at his reaction. He pinched his cheeks lightly and muttered sweet things to his husband who's giggling at the moment.

Jonginnie....

Jonginnie.......

Jonginnie..........

Kyungsoo was stiffened for a moment. Jonginnie? He smiled weakly at the two.

Jongin hugged his husband and kissed his temple. He then looked straight at his husband's eyes and cupped his cheeks.

"Thank you for giving me a child. I love you, Baekhyun."

Jongin kissed Baekhyun on the lips then hugged his husband and the smaller just laughed.

Kyungsoo looked away from the two. He can't stand to see what he was seeing... he can't stand to see his love, happy, being so in love with someone else. He only just gets hurt. The pain in his chest just gets stronger and stronger. He felt like his heart was crashing that he felt his eyes became watery. He then realized he was already crying.

He stood up from his seat and looked straight at the window behind him. He covered his mouth to refrain himself from sobbing enough for them to hear. He doesn't want Jongin to see he was crying... because he knows even when he cry, he won't come back, and even if he ask him to.

He wants to end the pain he was feeling but....he just can't.

"We'll be going now, Dr. Do. We still have some errands to do. Right, Baekhyunnie?"

Jongin spoke up. Kyungsoo wiped his tears and fixed himself before he faced the two. He smiled at them and bow.

"A-ah, I see. I'm sorry by the way if I was the one who showed up today. Dr. Lu was busy today so he just reminded me about your check up. I'm also a doctor so you don't have to worry about me."

Kyungsoo explained, stuttering, but still, Jongin had doubts of what he heard.

"Are you even sure with the vitamins you gave to Baekhyun?"

Kyungsoo was surprised at what he heard. Was Jongin doubting him? He can't believe he was doubting him with these. Yes, they divorced because of the baby but no, he can't do what Jongin was thinking he would do. He was somehow....hurt. Don't he trust him anymore?

All he can offer him right now was his smile and his assurance. But Jongin just felt uncomfortable.

"I'm a hundred percent sure I gave him the right medicines and informations that Luhan told me. And if you're going to doubt me again, here, go look for yourself. So please, excuse me."

Kyungsoo handed the prescription to Baekhyun and smiled at him. Before Kyungsoo left Luhan's office, he uttered the words he wants them to do but don't wanna to say.

"Please be happy..."

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"It just....hurts so much, Lu. Seeing them happy feels like thousands of knives were stabbing me right in my chest. And him, doubting me, was the worst part of all. He acts like nothing happened between us. He treats me like I'm just nobody. And it hurts me like hell."

Kyungsoo cries at Luhan's shoulders. He confesses to him what just happened earlier. And as his bestfriend, Luhan was pretty disappointed with Jongin of what he just did.

"Hush now, Kyung. He doesn't deserve your tears!"

Luhan caressed his bestfriend's back and tried to calm him down until his husband came. Sehun handed Luhan the water and made Kyungsoo drink it for him to calm down for a while.

"Maybe if I gave him a child before Baekhyun entered the picture....maybe if only Jongin didn't doubted me. Then all of this wouldn't happen at all."

Kyungsoo sobs. He looked straight into the couple's eyes. "It's all my fault."

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Kyungsoo walks by the seaside to relax, also to take this thoughts away. He needs this..he needs to relax. He needs to take a rest. Since he and Jongin divorced, he overworked himself to refrain himself of thinking about Jongin, when all Jongin did was to hurt him.

He sat by the sand and watched as the sun sets... he used to watch the sunset before with Jongin but all of a sudden, he's all alone.

He wanna forget about him and just move on but...he can't. He's too in love with his first and only great love.

Kyungsoo sighs as he remembers his memories with Jongin before.. starting from how they met.. how Jongin stated his love for him.. how Jongin started courting him.. how Kyungsoo said his sweetest yes to him.. how they got committed into 7 years of relationship.. how Jongin proposed to Kyungsoo and how he said yes to him.. and up until how Jongin filed a divorce paper because of Baekhyun.

Kyungsoo still remember everything. The scars Jongin left was still fresh. He still can't get over with him.

Because he still loves him.

And he hates the fact.

"Should I give up on you when I'm still in love with you?"

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Note: I swear I'd finish this off unlike what I've done to Last Hope. I'm sorry I didn't continue it tho I'm replacing it with this, Barricades of Sincerity.

Hope you'd still support this. Gee. Daily updates again, I guess!? Haha. Feedbacks? :)

PS, Pardon the typographical and grammatical errors. Will be editing this soon!