The Waves of Feelings

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I wanted to experience the young love,
The innocent kind of love
That would bring butterflies in my stomach.

But then I know it wasn't my priority,
Life is hard that it humbles me a lot.

I meet different person that makes me want to stop, hold and makes me want to let them in with my life.
But I choose to say no to myself.
No, it will not do me good. No I shouldn't.

I'm still young to think of enjoying the teenager life, the innocent and young love.

What I truly need is those love that will last, those love that will stay until the end.

So I choose to go away from the people that is a danger to me,
A man that I know I will definitely fall,
As I can feel the high speed erotic heartbeat slowly coming to burn me alive,
I'll choose to run and hide with the best that I could,

Love in this life is a distraction for me,

It scared me.

As I know it would change my perspective about the life that I wanted, it would change my way of thinking, and I don't want that
I want to achieve my dreams more than how I want to feel what love really means.

I wanted to be ready, I want to achieve the things that I am aiming,
So if ever love will come in my way  while I am achieving my goals in life, I would choose to stop it, to cut it, to be stoic.

My ambition will always be my first priority over the love that I've wanted.

If love is really for me, I know that after I'll achieve everything that I really wanted, love would find it's way to me.