Always has been you

Night out in Mexico

Amelia:
We went outside and brought some food and went in a random fountain. The most relaxing thing was the water falling from that fountain.

We both went to our old talks. We talked about everything. We were talking about how he feels with RedBull about what he wants to find something relaxing for him. And he feels like Formula 1 took his whole life and he feels to do something with his life.

"Why do you feel like this? Formula 1 didn't took your life."

"I don't know, but that's what I feel, I want to visit so many things that I didn't. But I'm tired of talking only about me, I want to hear something about you!"

"Nothing much. But I always feel that Juan has something with mom."

"Are they not father and daughter and are a couple?!"

"No! Noo! I feel like Juan didn't like the idea that my mom has a new job. She always worked so hard beating a nurse, she barely was at home. Juan just wants the best of mom, I mean that what are fathers do, right?"

"I don't know, parenting is so different and difficult in the same time. There are many kinds of parenting but in general they want the best for their daughter!"

"You know, I really want to have kids, I mean I was surrounded by kids all the time."

"I wish to, but for me being an F1 driver it would be hard for them, they will grew without a father, I will visit them only the summer vacation and the 3 moths of break for the new season, that's all."

"But if you really loved them you could like invite them for a Grand Prix."

"But first I have to get a wife." He said laughing.

"And that's the hard part!" I laughed.

After a good laughing, we went silent, to take a break
from our laughing.

"So, what is your dream?" He asked.

"My dream is going to Australia, I know! It's a weird dream, but when I was 15 I kept money for this." I replied.

"Wow, yeah it is a big dream, but it's not impossible, well hope you can get to Australia one day!"

"I hope too, but what is your dream? Curly hair?"

"You still gonna call me Curly hair?"

"That's your nickname!"

"And then your nickname, not Mexican girl!"

"Not that one!"

"Let me just think! What about Carino?"

"Carino? How come?"

"I heard when I called you, Juan was there and he called one or two times Carino and it sounded so good, and now tell me what is your dream?"

"About kids, i don't want to die alone, I want to have a girlfriend, to like someone, to love, to even die for them." He said looking at the fountain, he was a little bit worried.

"Isaac, you will found somebody, you know that quote?"

"What quote?"

"When you are lost In the darkness, look for the light!"

"But I don't find my light, I tried, through instagram, tinder, facebook etc."

"But maybe your light it isn't in tinder or instagram!"

"Maybe I don't have a light!"

"Isaac!"

"What?"

"Everybody has a light!" I put my hand on his hand. And I looked into his brown eyes that I instantly I got lost, it felt different, I was nervous. But then I shook my head and then I realised what universe I am.

"We should go visit something!"

"Sure!"

And we both went through the street of Mexico and we talked again for hours and again we were staring at eachother eyes, after all the things we talked and walk the sky was a little bit blue. And then I took my phone from my pocket. It was 4 in the morning, oh god! I will be dead. Mom is going to kill me.

"Isaac, I'll be dead!"

"Why?"

"It's 4 am!"

"Oh fuck!"

"I should go, it was a pleasure meeting you, I really missed you!" I said and hugging him tight.

"I missed you to!" And then I was about to go until.

"Bye carino!" He said.

"Bye curly hair!"  Then I left.

Isaac:
A whole night I stayed with a person that I know only for some months. We talked about everything. But the way she was looking at me it felt different, I started to feel nervous when I'm around her, I shouldn't feel this way. But maybe I overthink, I can say that it was an amazing night.