What is Arizona Robbins had a triple surgeon twin, Y/n, she works in neurosurgery with Amelia Shepherd, in PEDS with her sister and in OB/GYN with Carina Deluca what happens when she starts finding love then losing it all over again. How could someo...
TW suicidal thoughts Back at home at 9:00pm / 21:00 Y/n POV
I change into one of Arizona's shirts and then plop down on my bed face first , then place my head on the side of the pillow so I don't suffocate. Close my eyes for a second before Zona comes home, just need some silence for how stupid I was today, for my stupidness to kill itself because I won't do it to myself. Carina is overly excited about her job, I mean it's nice being the first person to hold this fragile human in your arms, it's interesting learning informations about private parts of humans that some humans don't even know about their own parts, but I understand that it would be more enjoyable if it was the only thing that you do and not also 2 extra, but I enjoy it. It keeps me busy.
I hear my door open "Hard day?" Zona asks while sitting down facing me "mmh" I mumble too tired to answer "Amelia told me what happen" "Ooh! Now do you realize I'm not the only one that hates myself" I say while while chuckling
Zona knows that my coping skill is humour and she tries to remind me that it is toxic, but it's not like I care, well I do it's just hard to let go of it.
"Y/n..."she says while laying down her face next to my face "I'm going to sleep, I'm on Neuro again tomorrow" I commented "Can I sleep here with you" "Yeah, don't need to go into your room, my clothes are already in the draws, take a pair of pjs or just a shirt and shorts" "K"
I get under the covers then in a few seconds Arizona joins me and immediately attaches to me and all I can do is think about tomorrow and then I just close my close my eyes.
At 2 am I feel Zona slightly snoring while sleeping next to me. I'm not sleeping, I haven't slept. I do not want to go to sleep, we'll it's more that I can't. Everyone says that I'm probably an insomniac, but... I don't want them to be right, because then... never mind.
At 5am My alarm finally goes up, I can get up and get ready for work... for work with Shepherd. It's ok, it's totally fine I just gotta get dressed.
"Ugh, why do you get up so earlyyy" Zona's awake "Because, I have to get ready" "You, sorry, we have to leave at 7:30 only!" "Exactly, gives me time to shower and not fast shower for thirty minutes so now it's 5:30, then get ready which takes 15 mins so now it's 5:45. Then I get dressed which takes normally around 10 minutes, because I don't have to rush so now it's 5:55, then I go downstairs and make your breakfast, because I don't eat breakfast, and that takes around 35 minutes so it's now 6:30. Then I go and make my ice-coffee with the coffee machine I bought you, which you probably never use because I see you around work with the coffee from-"
"I don't need to hear it, now just finish your schedule, so I can see if it's actually worth it"
"Ok, making coffee takes around 5 minutes, because I also have to find a cup to-go and I usually take like 5 minutes deciding which one would match my outfit. So now it's 6:40, then we talk while you eat breakfast and that takes 20 minutes, which is now 7:00 and then I do random little things left to do, like brushing my teeth, while you get dressed and do your things and then it's around 7:30 then we leave"
"Ok..." "Anyway.. you just used up few of my minutes, so I'll take my shower faster than usual, now you can go back to sleep while I do my things" "That 100% fine by me" Zona says while laying her head back on my pillow
After the shower
I am going for a casual look today, a kind of fall outfit, my pink crop top and pink sweat pants look cute together, I'm going to change into scrubs anyway and it's near October anyway so I should be fine.
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I go downstairs to make Zona's breakfast, I think I'll just make her a normal eggs and bacon, wait... for gods sake, I forgot the god damn fucking bacon at the store. Imma look through the pantry, wait! Yes yes yes, I have the ingredients to make home-made pancakes, wait do we have blueberries, yes we do I can make blueberries pancakes, Zona's favorite.
At work, in the attendings lounge
I walk into the attendings lounge reading my book, because I don't want to look up and see Shepherd.
"Hey Robbins" I really hope that Shepherd is calling to my sister and not me "Hey Y/n Robbins" fucking fuck she's talking to me "Yes" I say looking up from my book,
don't show your emotions in your eyes don't show your emotions in your eyes don't show your emotions in your eyes don't show your emotions in your eyes don't show your emotions in your eyes don't show your emotions in your eyes don't show your emotions in your eyes don't show your emotions in your eyes don't show your emotions in your eyes don't show your emotions in your eyes don't show your emotions in your eyes don't show your emotions in your eyes don't show your emotions in your eyes don't show your emotions in your eyes don't show your emotions in your eyes don't show your emotions in your eyes don't show your emotions in your eyes don't show your emotions in your eyes don't show your emotions in your eyes
"Wow, hey Y/n, how are you not cold" oh god thank god to Maggie Pierce "She was always dressed like that during fall" Mer comes in laughing "We-"I start "Anyway, this girl here and I have to get working"she nudges me "Bye" they all corrus while Arizona tries to give me a kiss on my cheek while I try to pull away
When we are out of the door, Amelia starts talking
"So, about yesterday-" "I get it, now drop it, got it?" I interrupt while ignoring eye contact "Y/n, I think we started off badly" I can't stop myself and I let out a scoff "Fine" Zona said that I should try giving people a second chance "Whatever let's you sleep at night" I mumble
