''How can I unlove you?
When I hear love
I remember you
When life is hard, all I think about is coming to youWhy do you smell like home
When you just come to me
When you're bored and alone
Why do I have to feel at peace
When all I get is pain and tearsMaybe you're the twist
To spice up my boring phase
How can I unlove you, love?
Can you teach me how?''-Xy
''What made you write this piece?'' the interviewer asked me.
I smiled sweetly and face the camera.
''It was my 19 year old self who wrote that piece over a man who is mixed signals that I just wished to unlove him and deny what I feel. He wasn't ready at that time. He always says he loves me but I can barely feel it, how can I stay? When I don't feel secure nor assured. He is my first love'' I laughed.
Napatingin naman ako sa mga tao. Based on their reactions, some can relate.
''Did he change his ways to have you?''
''Yes''
''Did you accept him?''
''Yes''
''Did you marry him?''
''No''
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My Solace
RomanceHow can I gaslight myself? That this was just me in my delusional phase And not the lover who can't have what she wants, always? That this was just me being in love with the idea And not because I am in love with the guy who wasn't ready nor willin...