South Coast ((Isaac Waddington Fanfic))

Chapter Ten

BIG UP, DOUBLE UPDATE BECAUSE IT'S NATIONAL DONUT DAY SO WHY THE HELL NOT?!

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Anyway, three exams left and then I can write more and keep you updated because I think this will be a longish fic... Idk yet.

-Bec (twitter- @hiwadders )

I sit in my tree with my knees against my chest and I cover my mouth trying not to breathe too loud. Isaac is still walking around looking for me and has been for the last hour or so. Even Finn joined him.

Finn asked Isaac why I ran off and he just ignored him but Finn was persistent which resulted to Isaac telling him that he 'said something wrong'. Finn then asked 'what it was' and I could hear the regret and confusion in his voice and it made me think that maybe he didn't know. And even worse, Isaac was telling the truth. But even though I was wrong, I couldn't face apologising or explaining everything. I couldn't face being around them after I just ran away, again.

"I think I know where she is." Finn says in a monotone voice.

"Where?" Isaac asks.

Finn looks up and I lean back in attempt to hide but he catches my eye and I suck in a breath. I can feel the lump in my throat get harder and sharper. But he looks at me innocently and I can't tell what he's going to do next. He's either going to stick with his friend and tell Isaac where I am or he isn't... And I don't know where to place my bet.

"Where?! Finn, help me out. Just tell me where, mate!" Isaac shouts, "Sorry, I just don't know what's she's gonna do..."

He lifts his arm and points.

Points away from me.

Without anything, Isaac runs in the direction and I let out the breath I didn't know I was holding.

I look forward and Finn speeds up in the same direction, before he looks back and nods slightly. I sit in silence, just staring.

"Go!" He mouths and I leap out the tree and fall onto my ankle.

I lean on my ankle in pain and let out a cry, but I force my weight up and limp in the opposite direction.

My mind swirls around everything. The pain of my ankle. The blood on my hand, from who knows where. Finn letting me go. Finn lying to Isaac. Isaac telling the truth and then running to look for me. Him telling Finn that he doesn't know what I'd do. The fear.

It clouds my brain up again and I almost see the deja vu from the first time I ran away from Isaac. But this time I'm limping.

And i'm in the wrong.

I push the front door open and run in and head straight to my room. I throw my shoes off my feet and onto the floor along with my coat and clothes. I change into a shirt and large socks and climb into my bed, covering my head with my duvet as I let myself cry.

I screw my hand into a fist and start hitting the pillows as I scream into one. I let myself explode and all the emotion pours out like a fountain. It feels as if every time I cry, it makes me even more worked up, until now... I can actually let it go. I can let the thoughts and imagines leave my mind for the time being. I can just be on my own and be sad without anyone seeing me, and I can be the emotional wreck I already am without having to put a mask on...

My eyes close and I let the tears roll down my cheek on either side. My chest rises as the little hiccups of cries occur, but apart from that I stay completely still.

One.

Two.

Three.

Four.

Five.

Six.

Seven.

Eight.

Nine.

Nine point five.

Ten.

I reach for my earphones and stuff them in my ears as I let the music turn my brain into mush. I let every word sink in and try to look for some advice in the lyrics but it seems almost impossible. It's as if, we hear the real meaning when we don't try to and I reckon it's because we're not expecting it- we're not in need of answers. But when we do need it, it's just a bunch of words with no real meaning. We know what we're searching for so it's hopeless to find.

And that's life, we learn things when we don't expect it and then we are just supposed to be familiar with them, in case they occur in the future...

But I can't do that.

I can't remember anything that's going to help me.

The lyrics to 'Hear me' by Imagine Dragons swim around me and I just become aware that it is stating the obvious.

Can nobody hear me?

I got a lot that's on my mind,

I cannot breathe.

Can you hear it, too?

I keep listening until I see Isaac's face in my mind.

Leave your shoes at the door, baby.

I am all you adore, lately.

Come with me and we will run away..

I think about him talking about his story. And then him telling me that I can make my own. I should make my own.

I want to.

I have a few exams left and Britian's Got Talent.

Unless, I don't do it...

What if I just leave?

I can start again and be a new person. I can create a new life for myself and a up-to-date identity and personality.

It would be good.

I'd be happy, right?