Shore Of Hearts

End Of A Chapter

Beginning of our second week was no different. Our routine hadn't changed much other than the bunch of hugging, hand holding, sleeping, things typical couples back home wouldn't do. But we were never a typical couple. We were women which makes us quite different, but I think we were beautiful. Marie, my darling you were such a joy to love. I will never forget that one day. 

I was feeling extremely depressed due to the state we were in. My body had put itself into panic mode and rightfully so, we were in the middle of a bad storm and part of the boat was cracking. Instead of telling me to calm down, you took me in your arms as we hid beside the furnace. I could feel your fingers running through my hair as you hummed a tune. I closed my eyes and felt people waltzing within my head. I felt safe.

I hum that tune right now as I near closer to the deadly passage.

I hear it ring throughout my ears

I don't ever want to forget that tune.

My current location is unknown and I am scared. I write about that moment in this passage as whenever I am nervous or scared and alone, I curl up to the furnace in your jacket and hum that silly tune. My heart aches as I write this. It's hard surviving knowing you're going to die alone, and my body may never be found either. I am so incredibly scared. But once it's all over the people will stop dancing in my head, 

and I'll finally be able to see you.

I want to finish our tale before it's all over.

After the night of the big storm, I woke up with you not in sight. I immediately shot up from my bed worried that the worst happened to you, and you were eaten by some shark. I exited out to the lower deck and saw you collecting some sea water. For some reason, on this particular day all my senses were extremely heightened. My body could just sense danger in the air and I felt like the world would end soon if not right then and there.

"Are you okay???" I said, worrily.

"I'm fine, what's wrong?" You replied.

I felt myself break out into a cold sweat with goosebumps all around. Something wasn't right. This wasn't right. 

The entire day was completely normal. I had not spotted a single thing out of the ordinary. My brain was freaking me out for no reason whatsoever, I felt like I was going insane. I remember you attempting to comfort me, singing me that same tune you always sing. Which had managed to calm me down quite a bit but not enough. Everytime you got merely close to the side of the ship I felt my guts drop within me. It felt as if every bone, artery, vein, muscle, organ was screaming at me to protect you and I did not listen. I continued my day as per normal and let you be. 

I have always been an overthinker so I simply brushed it off as me overreacting to this whole situation. 

The following morning I woke up to the sound of a thud on the upper deck. I shook it off and just assumed you were washing the clothes until the sound of your footsteps came to an abrupt stop.

I felt myself drop.

My entire body.

Every single organ.

I felt myself be sick, swallowing to prevent anything from coming up. As fast as I possibly could I bolted up the stairs. I was so scared to be here all alone. I'm scared to be here all alone. I'm scared to lose you. I was so incredibly scared to lose you.

I could feel my body screaming with every step I took. My legs heavier than ever, making my jog feel as if I'm in slow motion. A hundred thoughts consumed my mind at once, and not one was a good one. Though I did pray to god on my walk up those stairs. I could already feel my eyes well up with tears. As I got closer, a wheezing noise got louder and so did my sobbing. 

The people, still dancing in my head.