I'm Married To A Theerapanyakul

Surprise

Phai POV :

Phayu - Phai, do it fast. I am waiting, the car is ready.

Phai - Why are you in a hurry? I am doing it as fast as possible. Come and help me if you want me to come fast.

Phayu - why should I? It's your fault that you didn't pack before hand.

Phai - Fine, P'Phayu khab please help me khab so that we can leave faster and you can go and meet your boyfriend soon.

Phayu - Good. Now I will help you.

Phayu helped me out in packing and it was done in a few minutes. And we started towards the airport.

Phai - I can see your face is glowing so much.

Phayu - Of course I am finally going back to my baby. So I will be happy unlike you who is always grumpy.

Phai - Shut up, you are as annoying as always Mr.Annoying.

Phayu teased me by sticking out his tongue and went back to texting someone.

I guess he is texting Rain,I can see the smile on his face whenever Rain texts or calls or talks to him.

That made me think if I had the courage to propose to Sky, if I had married him as Dad wished would he love me back? Would we also be like Phayu and Rain? Would we also be in love? Would he also wait for me like Rain? Would he be excited to see me? Would he be happy to talk to me?

Thinking back to the time, I became a drunkard before Phayu came to America. Dad and Pa both came to America with me to help me get adapted to the weather and things around. Even though they didn't say anything to me because they were afraid I would do any self harm. They just stayed with me in that period. I should admit that I was a pain in the ass for them. Every time I passed out after having drinks for a long time dad or Pa would stay along with me. I would wake up from the same nightmare that Sky was leaving me and getting married to someone else, they were the one who held me and put me back to sleep.But I couldn't tell that to my parents. I can't let them know that I love Sky. Yes I love Sky it took everything before I could understand my feelings for Sky. I just hope he is happy wherever he is. I miss him, I miss him so much. I wanted to see him. But I didn't have that courage to face him again after what happened in the past. Whenever Phayu was talking with Rain, I could get some glances of Sky who used to be beside Rain working all the time but I never asked to talk to him nor directly see him.

I don't know if I will ever get to see him again or talk to him again. But I just want him to be happy with whoever he is. I can't see him struggling,I can't see him sad. I just want nothing but happiness for him.
I don't know if I can ever face him after everything happened. But one thing is sure that I miss him. I miss him so much. I was back to normal only when Phayu came back and pushed me out of the cage I prepared for myself. He forced me to stay sober. He forced me to do exercises. He forced me to have food. He was the only reason I am what I am today. As soon as Phayu landed in America, Pa and Dad left me in his care, because he was the only one who can handle me in times like this. Even when I was drug addict in high school, it was Phayu who brought me out of that situation. My Pa always says he owes some much to Phayu. In reality I owe Phayu so much. I am glad to have a brother like him in life. I just hope he doesn't go through such pains as me in life.

I had nightmares of Sky leaving me alone and walking away, a few days later I started seeing a kid in my dreams, I can't even see his face properly. Did I do something unknowingly that I am seeing these baby dreams? What do these baby dreams mean? I don't know what exactly is happening with me. I need to find out about this. I am glad Phayu was always there to take care of me when I woke up from those dreams precisely to say they are nightmares.