At 16 we used the same class desk, with less than 10cm between our arms. My peripheral vision was full of him.At 26, I woke up in the morning, and saw the sunlight softly shining on his face. I thought, this is how I want to grow old gradually, toge...
Late at night, I suddenly remembered a few events that had happened.
When I was a 2nd year University student, a high school classmate came to Daaegu to meet me.
During our chat she mentioned,
“I always thought you were studying in University C because of Taehyung.”
I said I wasn’t, and asked her why she would think that way.
She said, “Don’t you know? University C and Taehyung’s university have a programme whereby they exchange students annually.”
I knew about this, because when I first entered university the school did mention such a programme. However, I never really took notice of it.
“When we were filling in our forms relating to our desired universities, he suddenly came to look for me and asked me whether my brother was a University C student who was currently on an exchange programme in England. I said yes, and that University C had slots for students to go on an exchange programme to England every year.
Taehyung then asked me for my brother’s MSN. At that time, I thought he was interested in University C. It was only later when I understood that he was actually asking on your behalf.”
Stunned, I said, “But he has never ever told me about this.”
“Perhaps he didn’t want to stress you about it.”
My mind went blank.
When I was filling in my form relating to my desired universities, I was extremely indecisive. I’m not like Namjoon or Taehyung, both of whom could easily obtain admission into any university which they selected.
Rather, my grades were mediocre at best, and thus it was very hard for me to select a university. Now that I think about it, the universities which I ultimately selected were all universities which Taehyung had found by flipping through the entire university admission booklet.
It was only then that I understood starting from a long time ago, back when I was still cowering in fear, trying to push him far away from me, he had already silently started to make plans incorporating me into his future.
During the process of growing up, the most regretful part often lies in the fact that we always meet the best people we’d ever meet when we’re still ignorant and clueless, and thus we fail to recognize their goodness.
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I’m a person whose reaction time is very slow; thus, I didn’t particularly miss him after he left. The truth was, even without him, I managed to live my University life in a very fulfilling and joyful manner, and I even made a bunch of extremely interesting and cheerful friends. Till today, I still think back very fondly on my University life.
