The Lonely Girl

Part 8

I see my mom entering my room. I felt relieved that I kept the phone hearing the noise of footsteps coming. Thank God !! I heard the sound otherwise they would have killed me if they found out about me and my boyfriend.

** My mom enters the room **

Mom - Now what are you doing ???
Is there anything else left for you to do ?? Or do you want to kill us also ??

Me - I didn't do anything please. It was not my mistake.

My mom - I don't want to hear your excuses and she goes from there.

** I kept on repeating that it was not my fault and I didn't do anything while crying **

But honestly no one understands that it wasn't my fault. It wasn't but then also I have to be blamed for everything.

God !!!
Why does this happens to me ??!
Why only me ??
Why can't you even kill me ??
I prayed to you and I asked you to kill me but still I am alive.
If my problems can't end then please end me !!!

** I kept on crying and pleading to god **

I stopped wiping my tears too as my tears weren't stopping and it kept on coming. I felt like I couldn't breathe. I cried a lot like hell.

** Then at last the tears stopped and I wiped my tears **

I go to wash my face and then I dry my face with towel and I go back to my room. Open up my books and I start studying for my upcoming exams.

But I couldn't study. Nothing was going inside my mind. All I could think was how could I get this low marks ??
How did this happen ?? Why did this happen to me ??

Are they saying right things about me ?? Am I really like that ?? Is it really my fault ?? Am I really to be blamed for something which wasn't my fault ??
Did I just destroy my marks by myself ??

So many thoughts were running inside my head and I didn't notice that tears started dropping from my eyes again and I just wiped it and I thought I should stop thinking about this.

I layed on my bed and I tried to sleep for a while but I couldn't sleep. All I could think was how my parents reacted. How it slipped from my mouth and how my marks got low and what happened with me.

But I was so clueless that I couldn't even think about the answers to my own questions. But I knew one thing that I really studied hard. I didn't get time to revise but yeah I studied. It was because of those calls I couldn't concentrate so I got less marks but I didn't do it on purpose. It wasn't my mistake. I was never interested in talking with him and I hated him for calling me and disturbing me.

** I open my phone and I see that my boyfriend Liam has sent me a message and I open it **

Liam - I know it's hard for you and nothing I say will help you out but trust me it's not your fault and they are wrong about this !!!

I have seen how much you had to face because of those calls. I know what happened really and I trust you and I know that it wasn't your fault and it really wasn't your fault.

Me - I don't know. Maybe they are right about it. Maybe it was really my fault.

Liam - It wasn't. Now go and eat something and don't cry and drink some water please.

Me - No !! I am not in the mood for eating and you know it too so please don't ask this from me.

Liam - But you will become weak then how will you study for your next upcoming exams. Go and eat something.

Me - No !! I am not hungry !!!

Liam - Okay but eat after some time.

Me - Yeah ok.

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Hey guys !! I hope you are enjoying it so far....Sofia is really stressed for her marks and too much stress can be harmful for her...And her overthinking can make her sick and cause so many problems too....Hope you all are good and so for now bye guys
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