To Strike The Match (Fell X Reader)

5

This place again..how many days in a single timeline alone has he seen it...how many timelines have been this same scene?

mumbling to himself he scanned his surroundings...each thing made his soul clench...

why?...why here? 

"N-No...not again..."

The same flowers the same starry sky and bright ass moon same slow breeze....

hell he was sure the same amount of blades of grass under him were there...not that he ever took the time and energy into counting...but he was sure...

"No..."

Growling he ripped apart some of the flowers..

He had once woke up here dazed..confused...but absolutely enthralled.. the flowers once made him smile and sit in peace. The sky above him once was a goal to see...a future to look forward to...seeing the stars with pap was something he had wanted since he and papyrus were babybones...a chance at an escape...

The calming hill side...the breeze...the sky...all now a painful reminder of what he'd never get to see...a taunt...a damn taunt..tears began to fall from his eye socket.

"Please...no..."

He once loved this place...this place used to be where he'd willingly go , taking nap after nap JUST to be here...to see what he has been waiting for...a place back when the underground was  happy...the earlier years were ..something he must have taken for granted...back when he and pap were happy...this was a punishment...

A place where he could walk the paths of the underground and smile and be greeted as a friend to every monster...back before the human frisk had fallen...

tears fell freely down his cheekbones now...

Papyrus used to be so joyous..so free and innocent..scar less...not a spec on EXP on him...he was Red's ray of sunshine under this damned mountain..and even he had broken and hid his shining rays of light  behind the shadows of others..

He missed how everyone used to be..he missed his old life...his lazy laid back life where he could make monsters smile. where he could say a pun and make someone laugh..instead of being attacked...a life where everyone was open and care free...

Once monsters handed out treats from their shops or helped others out of the kindness of their souls...now those same monsters fight over those very same things they used to share...a place a monster could do whatever a monster wanted...be equal...

Now you had to have a status...a boss to work under...chained down in society like a dog just to be deemed normal...

this once calming place reminded him of his home...now nothing but a painful memory his head used as a reminder of  his once happy life...was over.

With a rage filled voice he yelled into the sky...glaring at every star he could set his eye lights on..

" ya fuckin kiddin me...here again?! fuck even ma dreams still mock me..."

He continued to yell...putting every amount of energy and emotion out there as loud as he could...he yelled from his very soul....tears hitting the ground...as he began to shake..wishing one star out of millions heard him and would magically change everything...wishing deep down...that this to was all just a nightmare he'd wake up from..

Maybe...if he yelled loud enough...he'd wake up back at home...papyrus humming a happy tune.. the tv playing a Mettaton special...his pet rock covered in colorful sprinkles..His friends to greet him and pap happily..

if he was loud enough... EVERYTHING would be back to normal.. before that kid fell...

that kid...that fucking kid ruined EVERYTHING...did the worst thing to them by giving them hope...that kid had changed everything with their ideas...going through the entire underground...saying the same thing.. that they'd be free...and once the kid was...the monsters waited...and waited...held in their breath staring at the ceiling separating them from the surface where the kid was......and waited..

Every monster began to change and give up and move on...losing hope is like signing a death sentence. And EVERYONE did it...

Papyrus though?...he held on hope longer than any other monster did...strung Red along with it...so they waited more...but even after all that..

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[Nobody came]
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And even papyrus had lost his hope soon...crushing red's soul as he heard his poor brother say it...to say the words he vowed never to utter...as quiet as ever...barely a tired whisper...a broken cry...looking up into Red's eyes as he to began to cry with Papyrus.

"...they...abandoned us..."

Red growled and began ripping up the flowers..he didn't want to be here..he hated the memories..he hated that kid...

fuck his life was run by them...he knew full well they were here to...he'd probably see his friends on the surface in the perfect ending he always hoped for...another mocking reminder...just down the hill by the exit to the underground...

Crying out in pure rage he clawed at more blooms...he wanted them gone...

"where's the rest eh?! where's the fuckin brat ta taunt me !?" 

he didnt want to know..he didnt want to see them...he didnt want to stay in this forsaken dream anymore...

He just wanted to wake up...to go home..