Idk what to title this made up story lol
I think it's angst and fluff at the same time aaaa ⛈️💝
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Scaramouche POV :
I continue admiring kazuha, but I realize it's already night. Good thing we've had dinner earlier, or else kazuha would go hungry.
I look at the boy, he looks so precious.
I myself start to get sleepy, so I tuck myself in bed beside kazuha.
I feel himself moving, which makes me panic. Could it be that I've woken him up? -- kazuha lifts himself up, as I see his head softly fall on my chest.. maybe he had sensed I was here so he..did that.
He's still snoring softly. Even after a few 1-2 hours or so, i could not dare to slumber upon him, he's just so majestic and it felt like it was illegal to be with someone this beautiful.
I'm not sure why I'm even thinking like this of him, my mind had never thought of him this way, neither has my intentions to think about him this way. But I don't resist, i too agree that he is beautiful, majestic, and a flawless, confident poet of a man.
Oh, my heart beats just as thinking of it.. i feel like I've had a heart for the very first time. Today, now. Why? I'm a puppet, im a useless, sorrowful and full of guilt of a puppet. Why do I feel like I have a heart? Why does it feel like-
My thoughts have been bothered.
I feel kazuha rubbing his head on my chest, i see him smiling while he snores, while his hair falls down his face while he moves his head in different directions to get a comfortable rest.
I slowly pick up a portion of kazuhas hair, slowly lifting it up off his face to see a better view of him. He was beautiful, he always was.
I do not feel like having those thoughts again. Those meaningless thoughts, my sorrowful and sad past. I have now been saved by nahida, and she has blessed me with great joy. I have never told her such things, but it still makes me feel greatful after I'll I've done to be myself in the past, she Forgave.
Forgiveness, forgive, forget.
I will forget my past. All my burdens in inazuma will burn, and I may live carefree. I trust nahida, and she trusts me. I am free. There are no strings attached, there are no burdens. It is all anew. Just because I had a bad past here, it does not mean I will despise inazuma. I will recollect my past, and forgive, forget.
All that matters now, is that i get to spend time with the person that makes me happy, someone I wouldn't dare to lose.
I tear up, all these thoughts have been bothering me, after I had just promised myself to not think about it.
I hear kazuha waking up, as he looks half-asleep.
"Kazuha?" I said in-between sobs. I see him worried for me, i can't help but feel guilt.
"S-scara, why are you crying?" He said. He then wipes the tears off my eyes with his cold and delicate hands.
"Nothing. It's just my past, my burdens."
"If you want, you could tell me about it, and we can both understand the situation together.." he said, still sleepy.
"No, i want to forget about it.." I said, as more tears form in my eyes.
I feel his fingers once again wiping off the tears that are forming and falling off my cheeks. A blush comes to my face, as he smiles at me. Oh, this boy is so sweet.
I dislike sweet things, but not this one.
He gives me a kiss on the cheek, and I stop sobbing immidiately. I felt the sorrow in my body leave, the guilt wash away, as i cup his cheeks, almost kissing him but stopping at it.
I let go of his cheeks realizing what I'm about to do, and I blush.
"I-i apologize."
"Why?"
"What do you mean, 'why?'"
"Why didn't you kiss me, why'd you stop?"
"Isn't it too fast?"
"I think we've been friends for a while.."
"It's just been a week."
"So what? I-i want a kiss..p-please.." he begged. Fuck, I got turned on..
I once again cup his cheeks, but with my two hands. His face was so cute and needy, so of course I kissed him. His lips were soft, his breath was cold while mine was hot. I held his waist, and we continued staying like that for he past few minutes. I didn't wanna risk anything, since we have just been friends for a week. I didn't know things would get to this..
As his face got whinier, i blushed more, this was getting hot. I could feel his arms wrap around my neck, but I break the kiss for the need of air. He breathes heavily, and he rests my head on my shoulder, being on my lap.
"Are you okay, kazuha?" I asked. I hope I didn't go too far.
"N-no..it was good, scaramouche."
He whispered to my ear, I never knew something so simple like this could turn me on. Maybe it was because he sounded needy, or because..i like him?
Kazuha looks at me again, and I blush. His face looked so cute, just like earlier. His eyes were different, and he looks desperate, in the need of something.
"I-i want more..please.."
"Are you sure?, But-"
"I don't care how close we are, please just kiss me again.."
He said, and I obeyed. We kissed, but just for a quick moment to satisfy his needs. He then cuddled on my chest, i could feel something beating, I swear. He was so cute, he was so pretty.
"Kazuha.."
"Hmm?~"
He felt too shy to say it. So he then simply didn't say.
"Uh..nevermind." He picked up kazuha, putting him on his chest even higher, so he could kiss his head.
"Okay then.. mwah~"
Scaramouche felt a blush again on his cheeks, the small kiss on the cheek meant a lot. He honestly wanted more, he wanted to make out with kazuha, but that'd be too fast, so he himself decided to slumber with his kazuha, they both slept together, cuddling, the warmth of scaramouche helped kazuha deeply, kazuha was able to get a comfortable sleep. Kazuha smiled, enjoying every moment. He was happy, and he was comfortable.
Kazuha snored softly above scaramouches chest, as scaramouche wrapped his arms around his maybe new beloved, and he kissed his forehead, also falling asleep with the boy.
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This was fun
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