Tenacious Love (Hoody Romance) CANCELLED

Fifteen

I stare at my reflection in the mirror. Thoughts fly through my mind. I feel anxious and a sense of nauseous.

I stand to my feet and walk out to the living room where mom is asleep on the couch. The news is on. I quietly take my sweatshirt and go outside. The air is cold and it smells and feels like winter. I take in a deep breath and smile slightly. I love the cool weather.

I start walking and my feet carry me to the field where Hoody and I practiced for so many years. I lay in the cold grass of the meadow and stare up into the gloomy sky. A cold breeze brushes past my cheeks, causing me to shiver. I put my hands in my sweatshirt pocket and close my eyes. Someone starts walking towards me from the left. It's probably mom telling me that it's too cold to be outside right now.

I open my eyes and see Hoody standing above me. I sit up and brush some dirt off of me. He holds out a hand and I take it. He pulls me to my feet.

I brush the dirt off of the back of my pants and smile at Hoody. "Thanks."

Rain starts to drop down harder and I decide to go to the small shed where Hoody and I used to hang out in. Hoody follows me silently and I don't care enough to ask why. When I reach the door of the small shed, I turn around to look at him.

"What do you want?" I cross my arms over my chest and lift an eyebrow at him.

"I need to talk to you." He peers around quickly. "Alone." I stare at him suspiciously for a couple of seconds before agreeing. I walk inside of the shed. When I turn around, Hoody grabs me and presses his lips against mine roughly. I hesitate before returning the favor. He presses me up against the wooden wall and kisses me as if it was the last time he ever would. This goes on for about a minute before I push him off of me. He pulls his mask back down over his mouth. Emotion swirls through my chest and threatens to burst. I take in a deep breath, but I can no longer hold it. Tears well up in my eyes.

"You can't just keep doing this shit, Hoody!" I grit my teeth before continuing. "I have already told you. You may be able to handle this on and off crap but I definitely can not!" Feelings that have been pushed down start to push out like an overflowing tub. I told him this yesterday but it feels like it's been forever.

I continue to ramble on about how I feel. In the middle of the rage, Hoody speaks up.

"Bri, you don't have to explain yourself. I know I fucked up. I'm horrible. I didn't want to talk to you and tell you that we have to stay away from each other. I wanted to say-" He cuts off and looks down to the ground. He looks back up at me. "I wanted to say that I think I'm in love with you."

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Tears stain my cheeks as I run past trees. Rain stings my skin like small bullets. The sound of Hoody shouting behind me is drowned out by the sound of my heavy breathing. I run as fast as my feet take me. To where, I don't know.

"Brier!" Hoody's voice yells behind me. It again becomes muffled by my feet hitting the wet ground.

When the rain has slowed and Hoody can no longer be heard, I finally stop. My legs ache and my lungs burn. The tears have gotten stronger along with the disgusting mucus running down my nose. I frustratingly wipe it away and try to calm my racing heart.

"I think I'm in love with you." Races through my mind. Emotion and pain fills my brain as I try my hardest to deny my feelings. I have already known and I always will. I will never stop loving Hoody until death do us part. And I hate every moment of life because of my feelings. I just want a normal life and a family. But I can't ever have that. Not with Hoody. I can't even age, for God's sake.

A scream bursts from me and I feel weight being lifted slightly from my back. I fall onto my back and stare up into the branches. Rain splashes me and soaks my clothes. It blends with the tears that have finally subsided. Exhaustion sets in. I can barely keep my eyes open any longer. Before I know it, I start to drift to sleep.

I force myself awake. I sit up and wipe away the salty tears and water from my face. I start to shiver even though the rain has slowed to just small droplets. I try to stand but the soreness in my legs tells me how bad of an idea that will be.

In the end, I have to press against a tree and pull my hood over my head. My skin is cold and I start to shiver uncontrollably. They told me I could never age but can I still die? Still be put to rest?

My eyes start to force shut yet again. I can't help but drift into a slumber in which I fear I'll never wake from again.

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