i lay there
shallow or deep
i wont know
would never know.
its so quite
yet so chaotic
my mind is at peace
but something's really unsettling.
i feel no emotions
just a deep slumber
i dont know if this is a dream
i hear cries
i feel guilty
all i wanna say is "honey, i tried."
i want to see those faces again
trust me i want to
but maybe this peace is better.
in such numbness
my mind still wonders
if i have made the right decision.
they must have gotten my letters
they must have gotten everything i left behind
this is the most i could do for you my love
its my calling now
goodnight.
