Have you ever felt that the world is going against you? Parang pinagkaka-isahan ka ng mga taong nakapalibot sa iyo, no one tried to ask if you're okay or how you feel about certain things. They always misunderstood your intentions, what do they call that uhm, a wrongdoer? No, more like a villain. A villainess to be exact, a lady who have been misunderstood a lot, ano pa bang maasahan ko ni isa wala man lang sumubok na intindihin o kilalanin man lang ako.
They say I'm miss little perfect who doesn't want mistakes, an achiever who look down on others and a conceited one too. Lots of people will say negative things about you just to drag you down, but I don't show them that I am affected in any ways. This is my life, but why am I the villainess in this story of mine?
I read people like an open book, I understand their situations, whenever I tried to help they'll interpret it in a wrong way, of course people will judge you base on what they hear from their surroundings. Ngunit bakit nga ba ganyan ang pag-iisip ng mga tao?
I look outside the window only to see heavy rain drops falling from the sky down the cemented ground, inabutan na pala ako ng ulan sa aking pagsesenti dito sa coffee shop. I like being alone, it gives me peace, away from the drama life could offer you but sometimes, gusto ko rin naman makipag-tawanan kasama ang mga kaibigan, but sad to say I really have no one besides myself, unless you count my hamster as one.
I am an orphan, a scholarship is an opportunity I immediately took upon myself, it has lots of offers you know, monthly allowance for school, a free room to stay at monthly food expenses, of course nagtatrabaho din ako, I took tutoring jobs, research papers, projects etc.
As long as I maintain my grades I will be fine, but still I wanna experience a life like an average student. Life sucks, isn't.
I wanna be a heroine in my own story, not a villainess.
I don't have anything against the villains, after all villains are just another victims whose story hasn't been told.. just like me.
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After kong mag emote ay napagpasyahan ko nang umalis, nilalamig na ako at kailangan na ako ng aking babi hamster, I stood up from where I am sitting and leave a little tip on the table, hindi ako mayaman ngunit hindi din naman ako madamot, mayroon naman akong mabibigay kaya bakit hindi diba, di naman talaga ako naghihirap.
I took out my umbrella from my bag once I have set my foot outside, damn the cold breeze just hit my skin, tumayo lahat ng balahibo sa katawan ko. Malapit lang naman ang tinutuluyan ko, actually it is an apartment provided by the government for the likes of me and I really like the ambiance of the place. Ako lang din naman mag-isa sa aking tinutuluyan kaya't feel na feel ko talaga ang pagiging mapag-isa.
As I was walking down the road, I saw the rain getting heavier than before, pero kahit na ganito ay uuwi pa din ako, I always love the smell of rain once it hits the soil, and of course the rain itself, the cloud cannot contain all the heavy things its carrying that's why it needs to let it all out, just like us humans, we intend to burst out once we cannot handle it anymore.
It's okay to cry... but, not me. I won't cry kahit pa hindi ako iwanan ng ulam, kasi wala naman akong pamilya, ow-- dark jokes aside, malapit na nga ako sa apartment, wala akong masyadong nakikitang sasakyan na dumadaan dahil nga sa lakas ng ulan, of course hindi makakapagkatiwalaan ang brake ng gulong sa ganitong panahon---
*SCRRRRRRRRRRREEEEEEEECHHHHHHHHHH!!!* *CRASH!!!*
Bwakinangshit naman oh, bakit naman ako?
It happened so fast, I remembered a truck speeding its way towards me, maybe it lost its brakes, if hindi bakit naman niya sasadyain na sagasaan ako eh nananahimik lang naman ako dito sa sidewalk, so he really did lose its brake and viola, it hit me.
As I embrace the impact, I felt my body crashed in the lamp post before my mind went blank and my sight went black. Last thing I heard was a crack from my beloved spine, hang in there bro.
I think I just died, who could have survived that impact.
Bakit naman kasi ako? Is it really my time? I died with so much regrets in my life... I should have been more vocal, I should have smiled a lot and greeted back those who greet me good mornings... I should have... I should have tried to make friends... I should have...
I should have left my hamster a lot of sunflower seeds if only I knew this would happen...
Damn my baby will also die from starvation.
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