What Hurts the Most

Don't Remind Me

"Are you crazy? What were you thinking inviting him to my house? Hello, do you hear me, Helena are you insane?" I say before stepping into my car. Like seriously, I don't know what she was thinking. I've never spoken to anyone in that school, besides my teachers and my best friends. I can't even look the teenagers at my school in their eyes without  feeling insecure about the way I look, much less spending one on one time with the most popular guy in school.

" You're always complaining about doing projects by yourself, and now you're finally going to get some help. I don't see why you're so upset " Helena announces. She really doesn't understand ,does she? Everyday I cry myself to sleep because of how much those jocks and cheerleaders treat me. I am a good person. I don't lie. I don't cheat. I go to church. I'm not stuck up, just really shy. They make me feel as if I am a prisoner ,and that this is my eternal punishment for something I didn't do. Aaron and his friends have made my life miserable since I was a freshman, and now Helena wants me to spend time with him like nothing has happened.

As I put the key in the ignition I try to explain " I know I do, but-" I am interupted by an annoyed Helena.

"Look Kim, I know you better than anyone, you're just afraid of letting people in. You don't like to stick up for yourself because you don't want to come across as rude, but the reason they pick on you is because you make it too easy. I don't care what you say,but whether you like it or not, Aaron Taylor is going to be at your house tomorrow." she says reminding me of the "study date" I have tomorrow.

" So there's is no way I can possibly get out of this ?" I question hoping the answer will change and Helena just nods her head in agreement. "So what do you want to do this weekend?"I sigh,as I drive out of the school's parking lot.

"Actually, Dereck is hosting a party while his parents are away and I was wondering if maybe you wanted to come with me?" she asks me, as if she doesn't already know the answer. I mean seriously. Dereck is her boyfriend and they are going to be all lovey dovey and I'm going to be lonely with no one to talk to. Helena's boyfriend doesn't even like he, he probably only invited me because I'm his girlfriend's best friend.

"Negative" I reply "that's not really my scene.I might just invite Jeremy over so we can chill out and watch some movies or something." I tell her as I start driving down the street, and she just laughs. " Helena, I swear you're crazy. What's so funny?" I ask her still trying to keep my eyes on the road.  I can feel that she's just staring at me .

" Kim for a girl, who is supposed to be super smart, you're super oblivious to what's going on" I still don't know what she's getting at. "Oh my Goodness, for Pete's sake can't you see that Jeremy has a crush on you." Jeremy. Crush. Me. Is this chick crazy! Jeremy is my other partner in crime. He has been my best friend since kindergarden. He's been with me through everything from when my dad died to when I was being bullied. 

"No way we're just best friends no more,no less. I mean what will he want with me. Jeremy can do a lot better than me, like I would even be interested."I scuff

"You're only saying that,because you don't want to put yourself out there. You're just too afraid to show people that behind those glasses and those big clothes there is a lovable, talented girl who is drop dead gorgeous and has the bestest best friend ever." she shouts the last part, a little too loudly.

"You know you're a physco right" I announce as I slow down  to pull up into Helena's driveway.

"Yeah, but that's why you love me " she answers. But she's right I do love her, she's like the sister I never had.

"Yeah , I do , now get your butt out of my car "I demand as I give her a hug . She hugs me back."Bye, see you on Monday. " I tell her.

"Yeah bye, tell Jeremy hello for me." she cooed as she steps out the car "don't forget tomorrow bright and early. 10 a.m" she says as she makes her way to her house. Ugh, don't forget a study date with Aaron Taylor at my house? How can I ?

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It's eleven at night and I am bored out of my mind, what is there to do? All my homework has been completed, all my chapters have been read, and there is nothing for me to do. My mom isn't home she's out on a date doing, God knows what. Ever since my dad died we rarely spend quality time together. I see my nanny more than I see my mom. I know what your wondering, why would a 17 year old girl need a nanny.She's not really my nanny she's more my maid, but I don't like to call her that, because it makes me sound super rich and spoilt ,even though I am. I decide to go on my laptop and call Jeremy. It rings once and immediately he picks up.

"Hey beautiful,"he says waving to the camera. Although he's been calling me 'beautiful' since high school, I still feel the blush sneak up onto my cheeks. Jeremy really isn't a bad looking guy. He has hazelnut skin with deep dimples and dark green eyes that he covers up with thick, geeky glasses even though he doesn't really need them.

"Sup bestie" I reply .

"Nothing much listening to Up all night" he answers. That's why I love him, in the brotherly way of course, I mean he listens to One Direction like duh. 

"Can I ask you something? "I question

"Shoot' he replies

"What do you think of Aaron ?"

" Aaron, Aaron Taylor?" I nod my head answering his question. "Well he's a bit of an as-"  he continues but I interrupt him.

"Woah, language " I interject knowing what he's going to say, although I totally agree with him.  

"You know you're too innocent for your own good" he says between chuckles. " But you know I'm right, why'd you ask."

"He's coming over to my house tomorrow morning for our group project." I say and Jeremy just stares at me with a blank expression on his face.

"Why would you invite him over to your house ?" he questions sounding more upset than concerned.

"It's not me, blame Helena she basically confronted him in the hall way, this afternoon and now I'm stuck with him tomorrow. I don't know what to do, I can't talk to him!" I try to explain, but I sound more like a whining child.

"Do you want me to come over with you, just in case "he inquires. Aaw he'd risk wasting his Saturday for me. Nah I can't do that to him. 

"Nah, I can't let you do that. It's alright I'm a big girl I can handle two hours with Aaron, I hope. Any way it's getting late, talk to you tomorrow." I say

"Yeah, you need to rest up, you have a big study date with Mr. Aaron Taylor tomorrow." he answers sarcastically.

" Don't remind me." and with that I end the video call.

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A/N This chapter is dedicated to @CharmGem for doing an excellent job on the cover!

P.s Guy on the side is my impression of Jeremy. Thanks for reading What Hurts the Most. More updates coming soon