Tari X male reader

Reflection.

So you might be confused. Might not be. I'll be honest, I do not know where to start with this. But, I do know this. Tari x Male Reader was a test of my abilities of writing and was the first iteration of the Wilsonian Universe. I know what you might be thinking, "what exactly is the Wilsonian Universe?". The Wilsonian Universe essentially is a 6 part book series with different stories that all interlink into a standardized canon. It is officially my works put on display, at their final, fully published state. It's a big undertaking, especially since I got the whole autism thing going on, but I am hopeful to get it out eventually.

So what's going on with me since I never update my works? What exactly happened to me, why did I miss deadlines and kept going on rants about invisible expectations?

Well Wattpad was really my first exposure to "fame" (though we can all agree it was more just attention that I wasn't accustomed to). I thought I had hit the big leagues, writing for so many followers and viewers on a scale I never thought possible. When I originally wrote the first iteration of Chrome for example, I expected a viewership of about 10 or 12, not a few hundred. Or in the case of this mess of a story several thousand. Of course, me not being fully mature and quite literally was in the middle of puberty, I interpreted this as me becoming famous so I took me writing for Wattpad as me officially hitting that criteria, and I took it too seriously. In a sense, I felt overwhelmed. With the combination of me going through my own trauma at middle school, I had effectively caved in on my mental health, and by high school I just gave up on Wattpad. I started losing interest  in writing altogether and decided it was time for a break. To focus on me and find out what I want to be. I wanted to "find myself", essentially.

Well that, and I was really incredibly lazy. Still am to this day.

So what about the Tari stuff? Well, I wish it was some elaborate backstory where there is just so many countless struggles and such, but the simple answer is that I just lost interest in SMG4. My humor evolved, and I just see SMG4 as just... cringe. Don't get me wrong I applaud the work the guys are doing, becoming an animation studio and all that, but it's just not for me. Especially when my humor is dry and incredibly dark.

Truth is, I look at my older works with this and I just cringe. Tari x Male Reader was effectively the bane of me. I know this sounds like an overused writing trope, "a creator who hates his own creation" but it's the truth. Tari x Male reader was a mess that suffered from inconsistency, depth and a whole heap of other issues I could spend hours critiquing. And I'm sure in the future, I might see the Wilsonian Universe in the same way.

To me, Tari x Male reader is a sign. A message. Not like a lesson needing learnt in its writing somewhere, but it's a message of my resilience. Like it or not (I'm looking at you, TPM), Tari x Male reader was published. Through countless hours of making up a story, and guiding it with my hand and through countless struggles, persistence to never give up, especially in scenarios that seem utterly impossible to make it. That's my blood, and to my belief, it's the legacy of this account in some ways.

Tari x Male reader was not the bane of my legacy, it was the foundation that built me into the man I am today. Now look at me. I just graduated high school despite being diagnosed with depression, and lacking the motivation to get stuff done. I'm going on to college to get my teaching degree, and eventually getting my doctorates in history.

So what about me? Am I returning to writing on Wattpad? Maybe. I might come back, but I also feel like I've moved on. I'm working on the Wilsonian Universe as we speak, and I'm working with amazon for publishing. But I also feel like there are other alternatives that Wattpad just doesn't fill the role at all. I'm primarily on Nationstates these days, creating the boundaries for what will become of the universe.

If you want to find me on there, I go by The New Realm of Wilsonia (https://www.nationstates.net/nation=the_new_realm_of_wilsonia). I'm also active on twitter, which is linked in my bio if you're interested.

But, that's all I really got to say. I'll probably stick around for reading purposes, but I'm not sure beyond that. I guess I'll decide later, maybe. Maybe I can actually finish the empty works around here lol.

But anyways, thank you for everything guys.

Cheers, and may the lord bless you all.

- TPM