I hate losing friends though it happens so often. I am filled up with confusion and fear. I don't know of the next step or what will happen but I hope to hold someone near. I hope the future is kind to me soon and god provides me a way. As the bird flies free like I long to be, I only see it fly during the day. It must have many secrets in shadows after dusk. I hope someone knows me like that and if no one does, I pray. The kitten has the visible protection of its owner, towering above. It has food water and love. Sadly, for me, two out of three isn't enough. I wish to see my owner to Reassure me as I grow. But sometimes life don't work like that so I'll stay like this till as far as I know. Sometimes, animals, I envy when I am hungry for something other than food.Could it be love? Could it be hope? Or maybe it's just me as dramatic as I am. I can't be flawless like a dove. Beautiful and elegant as they brave new places I wish I could go. I wish to be like a dove. I wish to go with the flow. Fish swim free in the wild, huge habitat. I wish I was free in such a huge place. I have a home,school and church, and that's all that. I doubt anyone truly loves me with my flaws, fears, and imperfections. But I would be fine without love on one condition. I have one person I want to know. One person, I want to see who they are and how they truly see . But I can't. Because I don't know the answers to those questions and that one person, is me. Sometimes I hate myself for the stupid things I do. I wish to get my life together but I can't do that alone. I need a friend. A friend I can trust. A friend like god but one I can see. A friend like god but one I can hug. A friend like god but not like me. I need a friend who is different. Hopefully different from me. But I guess when the world turns it's back on you you have no choice but to turn your back on the world... Even if that means facing life's challenges alone. Right?
( and yes, I know it doesn't rhyme in some places)
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-The author-
