This Is Me Letting You Go

June 16th

Maybe it's just me, but I usually go back into my thoughts and remember the many good times we had. From the endless conversations to the silent nights. The moments we just sat in our car and stared at each other. I remember thinking to myself how amazing it feels to be next to a person that understands me. To sit next to someone who shares the same goals as me. And the thing I loved most was how we sacrificed ourselves to make a better future. How we gave so much because we believed that one day we would enjoy it. The goals were always there, but we lacked in communication. What began as a partnership, turned into a competition. Slowly, everything was vanishing right in front of our eyes, and we gave up. We gave up on everything we both promised to accomplish. And it hurts. The time invested, the sacrifices, the loyalty and dedication. Even when I realized I couldn't trust you, I still couldn't stop myself from loving you. Even when I realized you didn't deserve me, I still felt like I deserved you. Because I had already given so much of me, and invested so much time and energy, that it just didn't seem fair to have to walk away with nothing.