In advance, I need to mention (+) is Yeonjun and (-) is Beomgyu
_Will you stay with me,.. like.. all the time?
+I will
_But you weren't here yesterday
+I had to talk to a friend
_See? It's about preferences. Which will never be me
+It's not about preferences you dumbo
_Then what
+It's about life
_Then, I probably want you dead or something so that I can always have you here?.. I know I'm freaking greedy. don't mind me
+You're not greedy. You just need time
_Time for what
+To get used to life
_If this is how life works, I don't want to get used to it
+Why
_I mean like.. anyone else is ok... but somehow I wanna keep this greed when it's about you.. It makes you more special to me... yet it'll just bring unreasonable expectations to me and then it'll make it hard for you to come up to them since they're clearly unreasonable and then if it goes too far, I'll end up pressuring you too much and losing y_
+It won't happen
_What won't happen
+You won't lose me
_Can I be honest
+Yeah
_I can't trust you ..like thoroughly
+I know.. That's what we need to deal with
_We? .. It's my trust issues.. I need to fix it myself.. nothing you can help with
+Then what's my use
_What do you mean.. your presence alone is enough..
+Can I be honest, too
_Yeah
+It's not
_What?
+We both know. It's the things we do. Not just mere presence. You wouldn't have liked me if I only had just looks but a shitty personality
_Fair enough
+So yeah. I love you, so I'm gonna do anything to help you and that's not something for you to feel troubled about, since it's what I like to do. you didn't force me to.
_But seriously.. is that even possible for someone to truly like me..
+Here we go again ... What made you think it's not. I mean.. I know what made you since I know you, but for God's sake take that shit out of your mind..I said it for lots of times already
_Said what.. you've been saying many things to me for more than once which I didn't listen to..
+Ouch that hurt.. but yeah good point. I meant the conversation in which I'm begging you to believe you've got a load of charm .. Not just from the looks tho.. any fucking think you do and the tiniest of details about you.. and I've been saying this for a hundred times too that I'm truly and honestly shocked to see how you wasn't taken before I came into your life and how lucky I've always felt that I was able to get you before someone else did.. ah.. fuck this shit I'm out
He turned his body to face beomgyu in a quick move and attacked him in a second, tickling him to death.
Beomgyu nearly lost his breath and held his tummy feeling it ache from too much laughter. He begged the strong man above him to stop and he finally did after being satisfied by the torture.
Yeonjun then went back to his previous position lying with his head resting on his hands. While beomgyu was still giggling trying to catch his breath. And then had a big big smile on.
_It's so pleasant when the complements are from you..
He said still wearing the smile.
+No complements..Just truth. And with the thing you said about expectations
see.. It's not been long since we know each other so I think it's okay for you to find it hard to trust me.. And .. let's get this done first, ..never compare yourself with others who start a relationship.. you are you .. you can't trust.. and I understand and I'm not gonna judge you or anything, ok?
_Ah.. you're damn pretty when you talk
Said beomgyu, distracted by the elders plump lips.
+Focus. So .... What was I even talking about..
_The expectations
+Oh, yeah. I was gonna say time will fix everything, and trust me.. finally you'll be able to believe that I've got my eyes only on you and you'll be oblivious towards situations like yesterday when I met my friend, since you'll know that in the end, it's you who matters the most to me, and I'll come back home any time you call me.
_But.. you know..
nothing... I'm afraid to ask this..
+Tell me
_What if.. No.. leave it.. no need to ask
+Tell me or I'll tickle you again
_God, ok..
+Good
_But before that, lemme ask is one year not long enough??... I felt so distant when you said that.. it hurt..
+No no I didn't mean it like that. I meant not long enough for you to trust me.. Healing takes time babe, let alone reviving
_You're too good ..
+I know right? now ask the question
_Well I was gonna ask what if I want you to be with me 24,7? what if even that short amount of time you're spending somewhere else makes me doubt everything and what if this actually happens to me literally all the time? The doubts ...the annoying skepticism..
+You know why you're so doubtful, right?
_Yeah.. I've thought about it enough to have found out all the reasons and stories behind.. and I know it's because I don't trust myself in first place..
+Hit the point my smartass doll
_But I just can't stop doing it..
+The more we get specific the more I'll know what are the broken parts I need to fix in you.
You lack self love.. So much.. I've come to know that very well.. So now I know what I'm gonna do. It's actually the only solution that comes to my mind.
I'm gonna shower you with love every single day
Until you believe that you freakin deserve it
Said the elder with a serious tone and stress on the words of his last sentence to emphasize he meant it.
Tears slowly started to form in the corner of beomgyu's eyes.. He tried to keep his eyes open and prevent them from getting blurry by focusing on the white ceiling, but he didn't succeed and the droplets rolled down his cheeks from sides wetting his face and the pillow.
Yeonjun have learned the process well through the year they've been together, eagerly learning about the younger and what he would want from him in times like this.
He turned to beomgyu again who was also lying on his back. Tapped him slowly on the chest, and when beomgyu averted his gaze to him, he opened his arms and then brought the hand in the air down tapping the pillow under his head gesturing the younger to come to him for a cuddle.
Who was he to say no to that.. when it was exactly what he desired so much at the moment
He rushed to the embrace burying his head in his lovers chest feeling safe deeply.. something he rarely got to feel...
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