Naging curious ka na ba sa isang tao? Yung curious na talagang curious lang ah. Walang halong kahit na anong feelings hoy. Yun' bang lagi kang napapatangin dahil curious ka kung bakit ganoon siya umakto, magsalita, at tumingin—again, without any feelings involved. Uupakan ko kayo.
Although, there's one feeling involved. Galit. Inis. At gigil. I know there's three but they're all negative, so basically it's only one feeling. Bakit kamo? Well, ask the person who took everything away from me. Simula sa mga taong mahalaga sakin, hanggang pati sa mga school achievements ko, well, mostly sports related—but still school based so, basically school achievements.
Nakakacurious nang matindi kung paano niya kong nalagpasan sa lahat ng bagay na sobrang galing ko out of everyone. Nakakacurious lang kung kaninong matres nanggaling 'tong babaeng 'to at kung bakit dito niya pa napiling maglungga sa school ko—my grandpa's school to be precise. Still my school because we're families.
I want her out of my sight and my life.
But at the same time, I want her here to know her better.
Not because I have any kind of feelings towards her (except for galit, inis, at gigil) but because I want to find out something about her that will make her completely disappear from my life. I'm not talking about killing her syempre. I'm talking about making her go back to where she came from—not in her mom's belly okay, but to the place where she really belongs, somewhere far far away.
There's the door, miss. Now, get out of my life.
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LouLou 2023
