i missed our friendship.

i feel empty without him

pams pov
2 weeks. it's been two whole weeks since he transferred all because of me. it feels like the light that shone in the office had gone. i had no reason to show up to work every day, and it was all my fault. the loud door that is the entrance to the office snapped me out of my train if thought. "paammolaaa" michael said to me as he walked up to my desk as he walked by "how you doing kiddo? you spoke to jim?" he said trying to be understanding as he was aware the me and jim were best friends. i sighed before i spoke. "yeah, i'm fine. and no i haven't spoke to jim since the casino night" i confessed. he sighed then walked into his office

lunch
usually i sit with jim at lunch and we talk about potential pranks we could pull on dwight. he's another thing that's changed. since he hasn't been planked in a while he's oddly happier than he has ever been. i walked into the break room and sat down with phyllis, stanley, kevin and oscar, and we had a nice conversation that took up all of our lunch break.

i'm back at my desk and today's been slow so i haven't been getting many calls so i'm left alone with my thoughts. then ryan walks through the door from the annex with a box of his supplies and he walks up to jims desk and sets the box down the sat on jims chair. why would michael move him? that's jims desk. only jims. well, i guess,thanks to me, he's not coming back for a while. or even ever. i'm so selfish. but what really makes me angry is that i lied to him and myself. i wanted him. i was just scared of what roy would do. i didn't think of the consequences that my lie would have. i should have told him. why didn't i in the first place? now because of one lie that i thought would have no consequence has completely ruined my chance of dating my dream guy and love of my life.

what do i do now? i don't really have any other close friends in the office. i only had him. and he was all i could ever need, but i have to move on. but how? do i go on dates with some random dudes off of the street? or do i just give up on love? i don't want to go out with any dude that isn't jim but my brain is telling me i have to in order to get over him, like he probably already has with me. i'm not going to find another jim, so i'll just have to pretend i guess. i bury my head in my hands and sigh. i'm sick and tired of everything. i feel empty without him.

damn you james duncan halpert.
i regret my choice so please come back and love me like i love you.

sorry abt not updating for a bit i literally couldn't be bothered and that will probably happen more often, but more chapters will come. i js dk rn.
535 words:))