Snowfall

It was in the summer when we first met. Instantly falling in love, but it's one sided. We met when our friends invited us over for a drink. Since then, my eyes have been glued to you and would rarely blink. I was actually fine even if I were to just adore you afar. Then you came beside me asking how I am. Surprised, I told you I am good and when you smiled, I swear the time was slowing down, and my heart skipped a beat, it really is a majestic feat.
Since then, we have become closer and hang out more often. Sometimes, I could feel that you're telling me that our feelings are aligned but I ignored it thinking it's just my imagination running wild. I'm a coward, I should've just told you there and then but I never did. Now I regret that moment for eternity.
Summer is gone and begins the fall. The season's changed, we rarely see each other. Every time we meet you always overdressed yourself. I questioned it, and you said it was cold. It's almost winter, so I just took your word. Another thing to regret was that I never really wanted to know you better and just took your presence granted.
Winter came and we never saw each other again. I've tried calling and texting, but not a single answer. I've tried my best to find you, and asked every single person in your circle, but to no avail. Your sudden disappearance saddens me, however I didn't give up and wait for you still.
A day finally came when news about you arrived. It was your number that texted me telling me you are deceased and an invitation to a funeral. I can't believe it, I was confused and mad. I tried so hard searching for you and suddenly I got a "prank" message from you. I will never forgive you I said while clenching my fist in disappointment.
However, I soon realized I was wrong. With the address on the invitation I instantly dressed up to play along your little "prank". What greets me instead is your portrait besides a coffin. I came to look when I was still in delusion that you're playing tricks on me.
I glanced over the wooden case to see your pale face smiling inside.
Tears suddenly flowing out my eyes as if the dam was overflowing. My beating heart against your chilling body, tightly embracing each other. I cried my heart out while your family calmed me down. Still in tears I was told by your family and friends that everythIng was planned by you, from when our eyes first met to this very moment. You hoped to spend the rest of your time by my side.
I was heartbroken, sad and mad. You lied, you said we would stay together forever but you left. I gritted my teeth frowning and crying, looking over the wooden case being buried six feet deep. When everyone had left I stayed. It started getting colder until the first snowfall rained itself down.
I stood there for hours and hours, even after the sun had set and the moon rises I froze in place looking at your name carved on a stone tablet. My tears had stopped falling freezing on my unchanging face. I don't want it to stop but it did. The snow kept falling as if they were my tears.
It finally hit me that you're really gone, all my fears came down and my regrets flowing in my mind. I hate you. I hate it when you melt my heart in the summer heat and freeze it again in winter snowfall. Now, I'm afraid of losing someone I love dearly. I wiped my face breaking the frozen tears and leaving you a single tulip, because you love it so much.
Before leaving I took a final glance at your resting place and said farewell.
This is a story of my life when I was still young and looking for a relationship. Now, that I look back at it it still saddens me every time. Regrets will flow back to my mind as if I were still standing beside your grave that time. Time flew, it has been many moons over but I still remember you, the memories of my first love. I smiled as I stood beside your grave.
I wrote this story after she melted my frozen heart in summer and froze it again under the SNOWFALL.