Lifes Way Of Love

hitting depression hard

I woke up befor her and left to go to the bathroom because it was needed after last night it was amazing don't get me wrong but something didn't sit with me right. As I was in the bathroom I sat in the shower and thought about everything some how my mind made me think that it was all my fault her parents dieying her nearly getting raped and her meeting me it should have never have gooten to this point.

I felt the water from the shower pelting me all over my body and I thoight all about my mother and all the problems I made her have with me. I looked down to the marks covering my wrist and remembered the blood falling from those marks. Then I remembered a night where I cut myself to deep I saw the blood slowly falling the starting to go faster as the blood slipped from the tips of my fingers onto the cold shower floor I felt myself become a little faintish and looked back down at my wrist as I did I saw my blood flowing out of the cut at a very rapid rate and as I watched it I suddenly felt very tired and fell to the floor and layed their for about three mintues befor everything went dark befor me.

Weeks pass

I woke up on hospital bed with multiple machines attached to me and to wrists. A moments notice a nurse walks in and yells back out the door a dotors name and I see one running in the room and asks me multiple questions one involving me and reasons on why cut myself. I sat their not awnsering any of them so I don't have to dezl with a buch of people coming in and giving me a hole bunch of lecturse about cutting and it harms. So eventually he gave which I was happy about and when he left he closed the door and I heard a couple of muffled voices one of them sounded as if it was it worn out from crying or something. A few moments my mother came in and started crying over me as well as mariya and as I sat their in the embrace of their arms and tears. Yea I felt bad but I deserved it after what I had done to others I feel like I fucked up the world and I was the one that ruined it. I layed their listening to them cry over me and as I layed their I realized this is all I have in store for my life blood , hospitals , and making others cry over me. My mother kept saying why as she looked at me and all I did was give her a blank stare and said nothing.

I looked at mariya and saw the bangs under her eyes and saw the it looked like she hasn't got any sleep the past nights. Another thing that made me want to cut myself even more I hate hurting the one's I love so I looked down and whispered a measly sorry and kept my head down. The doctor came back in and insisted on house probation with all potentially sharp and dangerous items away locked somewhere. My mother acknowledged this and promised that she would do that. With that he said " David I need u to not do this again cause another event like this you might not live to see another.day with these two beautiful ladies". I gave him a look to back off but I'm pretty sure it looked stupid since I was the one in the hospital and he's the one standing. So I just shook my head acknowledging him to what he's saying. With that I was allowed out the hospital , and as I was walking out people we're giving me he's a freak look and it did nothing to affect me. I got into the back seat with Mariya in the front I layed down in the back once again and slept. I'ma say it was about a hour drive from how I woke in the back ' I got up and stepped put the car and as I did my mother tackled me in a hug as tight as she could and held me close. Eventually she let go and told me to grab Mariya because she fell asleep as well from the lack of sleep over the week I was gone. I grabbed her and continued to my room where I put her underneath th covers and whispered a sorry in her ear and kissed her cheek and wispered "I love you babe and I'msorry I made u worry". As i finished my sentence I was pulled from the front of me cause Mariya had woken up and tackled me in a hug throwing us to the floor and making a loud crash sound because my non moved vase fell and landed next to my face. My mother saw what had happened and left the room proabably to let me and Mariya spend time together which was what we both needed.

A/n I don't do alot of these but I just wanted to say that I would like a girl like Mariya and yes btw she is a fictional charater btw vut the book has gotten I belive 60 reads thats great but how about you guys go read my other books if u want and if u want like and vote my book so bye bye see u next time and btw u guys sometimes the person thats right foe u often is you're best friend of the opposite sex or mabe even that person u just started yalking to you never know