More Than Meets the Eye

part 3

6 years later

A buzzing alarm woke the dark haired women from her slumber. She turned around to face the closed eyes of the man she laid down with last night, Will I think it was
She wasn't a slut she'd say although even if she was she didn't know why it mattered. It was more that when her and her friends went out and got a little too into it she realized how lonely she was. Shes only done it six maybe seven times, the only part about it her friends will boast is unhealthy is that shes never actually had sex with anyone she really liked-or remembered.
Not since the first time, which was awful it was thirty seconds with a senior she a huge crush on who told her she had a nice rack, although later to be true she was only 15. He took her to the stalls after a game, told her to turn around and they went like that, and he would try to say sweet nothings in her ear.
She felt puking, why am I even doing this, it hurts and he's so sweaty. After it was done he grabbed her hair and told her she was his now. She pushed him away and slapped him hard. Let's just say he didn't take that well and this time she was shoved over the skin and held down with a hand over her mouth. i'm never having sex again

But urge were urges and she, like many people got horny. When she felt this way she did one of
two things, one which she wasn't proud of which was smoking or drinking till she forgot about it. That usually ended in her with some person at the end of the night regardless so not her most full proof method. Or she cried and cried until it hurt she shamed herself for feeling urges so she felt gross even after completing them. Now 19, she had never been on date, had a partner,
or even said "I love you" to anyone. She said it every now and then to her friends and Sal when she knew they needed to hear, and she did mean it.It just wasn't the kind of love she had grown to be ok missing out on.
She wiggles out of his grip and walks to the bathroom. Mascara is smeared on her pale olive skin. Why am I so pale its fucking its August
She lifts her shirt as she turns to the side seeing how far she can pull the skin on her stomach, arms and face. I need to work out again
Her thoughts are interrupted by a buzz of her phone. "Hey sis can I stay the night, Dad said it's ok" she cringed hearing dad still even to this day.
"Of course I can come get you in an hour be outside by 12" he agreed and said he had so
many things to tell her. She told him bye and said their I love yous and he hung up. She fixed her hair and got herself ready enough to take the trip down the stairs to her kitchen. She moved out two summers ago before her senior year, she swore never to speak to Darcy again. Sal was still a giant part of her life and she had him over often he was growing up and was now 14. He still didn't know about the beatings she got or anything really about their mom since Darcy decided they should instead say she died in a car crash. He never hit Sal or even got very drunk in front of him which she was grateful for.
at least he didn't wanna be 0-2

She didn't  let herself have much fun in high school either since she had fallen so in live with dance. It was until the accident that she quite and swore never to do it again. With West and Arlene whom were still her only friends she got through it.
They all attended the same college and moved in together early last year. Now they are all going back for their second year, best part three out of the five days were all online.
Her 20th birthday will be around the same time so her friends had decided to plan her a big trip. The only thing she had to do was pick a place to which she responded with,

"Anywhere with water and that isn't in Cali."
She liked having a small circle, lost of people don't like baggage and Kennedy had more of it then most. It was fine people pissed her off anyway, too many assholes. After this next summer her whole life could begin, all shes waited for since she could remember. She was majoring in engineering as well as minoring in biology and planned to become a biomedical engineer which is some who comes up with treatments for healthcare purposes. It wasn't her first choice but she liked the idea of helping people.