Sometimes I look at myself and think that I don't deserve to be loved. I look at myself and think that I am and will never be enough for anybody. But this guy right here made me forget all of that for the summer.
Micheal proposed to me to go to the city for a while. In his car. I told my parents I was going for a walk near the beach, but now it's already 7 pm and we're still in the car. Micheal is an introverted person with strangers and an extroverted one with people he appreciates. I think I like Micheal. Everything about him is mesmerizing. And I also think I got over Alexander. Now I don't freak out seeing him anymore. One day he came to me saying he wanted to talk but Micheal waved him off. I'm grateful to have someone like Micheal by my side. I feel safe around him. It's been one month since I came and first kissed him. And one month is left for me to go back home. And the thought of that makes me depressed. But for now, everything is fine, for now I'm with him in his car driving through the highway with music blasting. And for the first time, I feel alive.
But there is still some fear hidden deep inside of my chest. A fear that all of this will end soon. A fear that is too similiar to me. Because it's an emotion more than just a fear. After every good thing, a bad one happens. And that's what making me scared. That maybe this car will end up upside down in the side of the road in any minute. Or, maybe this is all a joke, and Micheal isn't really who I think he might be. And then... I think of Alex, how I never let him explain what happened or anything. And that sucks, because I don't want to think about him right now.
I lean down a little and increase the music, but it doesn't stop my thoughts from, at first, whispering, then shouting, and now crying so hard that I want to rip my fucking head off.
« You okay ? » Micheal says over the music.
« Yep,fine » I said back, knowing it's totally the truth, because somehow he has an edge on his voice that makes all the voices and thoughts in my head disappear and fade away. His voice is so calm. He is so calm.
« You're sure you don't want to get back home yet ? » He asks me,
« Are you serious Mikey ? This is the funniest moment of my life !! » I shouted throwing myself at him, what happened to me ?
« Wow,wow, calm down little girl, did they serve you drugs with dinner ? » He laughed at me, but I could tell that the first part was serious and that he wanted an answer,
« No,no don't worry ! » I laughed back.
And then, we went to an amusement parc, rided bikes and went to the skateboarding parc aswell. Micheal knew how to skateboard which I found attractive. And maybe, I thought, just maybe, the real best summer of my life wasn't the one I first spent here, when I met Alex. No, it was this one. This summer right here, and for a moment, staring through his eyes in the darkness of the car, I remember the ocean and its waves,how easily they come, then go. And i never want that to happen with Micheal. And just like that, the dark voices in my head come back, just before he chases them with a smile that makes my heart melt.
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Teen FictionAlyssa is nothing but a simple girl with a simple life. On her fourteenth birthday, her parents and her traveled to a nice place near the beach, that's where she met Alexander. The guy she thought was her first love. But one year further in their re...
