Fucking Detached

So Do I

I walk out of the bathroom and over to Griff who is standing by his dresser, back turned from me. I tap on his shoulder and he turns to look at me, he opens his mouth just about so speak when I lay my head onto his chest and wrap my hands around his waist. He wraps one hand around my waist and places the other on the back of my head holding me tightly. It feels like we're standing there for hours when I pull away slightly looking him in the eyes.

"Thank yo-" I go to say but my words are cut short with his lips gently connecting with mine, kissing me passionately. His hand on the side of my face with the other resting on the small of my back. In turn my right hand is placed on his chest, the other on the side of his neck. Our kiss is interrupted by the ring of a cellphone after a short minute. 

"Shit, it's Caleb. Care to come make a drug deal with me babe?" 

"Always." I say to him placing a kiss on his cheek and grabbing my shoes. He typically meets up with Caleb at the skate park, which is a solid twenty minute walk from our houses, so instead we take Griff's dad's car. Getting he the passenger seat I immediately grab the aux cord, blasting some J Cole "Wet dreamz." I light a blunt passing it back and forth between the two of us and screaming the lyrics to the songs. Glancing at one another every few seconds. 

"Man, it wasn't nothin' like that first time she was in my math class long hair, brown skin with the fat ass. Sat beside me, used to laugh at mad jokes, the teacher always got mad so we passed notes." 

As the song comes to an end we pull into the lot of the skate park, I unbuckle and reach behind me into the backseat grabbing Griff's backpack. We begin to head over to the ramps Griff's arm around my shoulder when I notice Caleb is not alone. He's with Theo Collins, you know the 9.8 from the party the other night? 

"Yoo Griffin what's up." Caleb shouts running over to us and dabbing him up, Theo follows slowly behind stopping for a second recognizing me. 

"Not much man, you go the money?" As if on que Caleb pulled out a wad of cashing, counting the amount before passing it over to Griff, who did a recount to check. ""Alright it checks out, here's your shit." Griff tells him handing him a tiny bag of coke, "What about you Theo?" He asks him.

"Nah I'm good still got some left but thanks, ill text you when I need some more. You two a thing?" He asks Griff looking in between the two of us, specifically Griffs arm resting over me.

"Nah, but looks like you've had a fun time this week." Griff points to the hickies on Theo's neck. 

"Ah well you know the usual met her at Ryan's party." he tells him winking at me with a smirk on his face.

"Nah man, this wasn't the usual, he was talking about her the next day more than normal and shit, plus I've never seen him let a girl mark him up this way." Caleb buts in laughing, and a smirk forms on face while Theo's disappears. "Ahh shit what was her name started with a M or umm wait I think an N damnit I can't remember. Come on Theo what was is." Caleb continues.

"I don't kiss and tell." Theo responds glancing at me, this time Griff notices and looks at me, his smile turning to a face of question, before dropping to no emotion whatsoever and removing his arm off of me. 

"More like fuck and do tell, cuz I heard all about it today." Caleb starts laughing and smacks Theo on the chest.

Griff forces a laugh, I could clearly tell it was face but the boys didn't notice "Alright guys we gotta head out I'll see you later." He dabs them up once more, before turning to walk back over to the car, but walks at a faster pace to be farther from me. 

Once I reach the car he asks me, or I guess he more likely states "You slept with Theo Fucking Collins?"

"Yeah, so what? You've never had a problem with me sleeping with someone before so what's different about him?" I ask him confused.

"Because Nicky he's not a good person."

" I am a bad person Griff. I mean Jesus Christ I met him in the bathroom while I was snorting pills. All I did was sleep with him, just like everyone else in the book, it's not like we're getting married or anything."

"Not like him Nicky, not like him." He tells me, sounding disappointed and exhausted. 

"What are you gonna tell me about him that's so bad? That he does drugs? Well so do I? That he buys them off of you? So do I. That he steals? So do I. That he gives no fucks about anything? Well neither do I. That he fucks everyone or fucks them over? So do I Griff. There is no difference."

"Whatever Nicky, just get in the car."