CHANGE ME YA ALLAH
I know that I have my bad habits
And they go on a long list
I blind myself from thinking
That Allah is the Most Forgiving.
My dress code shows my awrat
Only because I want to look pleasant
But I do know I need to cover myself someday
So for now, I'll enjoy being myself today.
My love for pop music keeps me on the go
I sing along to every lyrics that I know
Even if I have a dusty Qur'an on the shelf
It won't matter 'coz I can't understand it by myself.
The call for prayer has sounded
I'm busy watching a movie instead
I just can't do obligatory prayers
My mind's too busy with something else.
Later tonight, I have a romantic date
With the person I'm in a relationship with
I'm a mature adult and I know what I'm doing
I am confident that what we have is a real thing going.
Then drinking alcohol is unavoidable
Because it is the norm, after all
Partying and going home late is the life
Nothing's wrong with a bit of fun every once in a while.
But...
My heart is empty with reasons I cannot comprehend
And there's a void that cannot be filled by company of friends
Something inside me know there's gotta be more to life than this
But I'm just too weak to give up my bad habits.
As I lie awake here in my bed
The rain pours hard and I feel the sadness
I long to give life a new meaning
I can't ignore that there's something missing.
Closing my eyes, feeling my heartbeat
Opening them wide, then sitting up straight
Listening to the rain, I started to contemplate
How I have caused my very own blindness.
Of course there's a God and HE is Allah
And a real Muslim engages in Salah
And Muhammad (s.a.w) is HIS Messenger
I was told that he among mankind is the best example.
I cannot change my past ya Rabb
But I want to start a new life
I need to know about You My Lord
And in Qur'an, therein to us You spoke.
I seek for repentance of my sins
I pray for Your Guidance and Enlightenment
Only in worshipping You can I ever be free
From the danger of pleasures so temporary.
Change me ya Allah, purify my heart
Give me a chance, a brand new start
Let it be not too late for me to be a Muslim
Surround me with people of good influence.
Change my goals in the dunya
Let me work hard for the Akhira
There where everlasting happiness exist
There where successful are the believers.
Transform my evil deeds into good deeds
Teach me to suppress my desires and needs
This world can be a prison for the mumin
Hence grant me the patience and perseverance.
Change my attitude of abusing your kindness
Of not feeling guilty upon doing a bad deed
Allow me to let go of the haram things
And that if I choose YOU, I can never be broken.
Change me ya Allah and grant me Jannah
Because in Jahannam, there's endless trauma
Above all ya Rabb, let me get to know YOU more
So that my submission upon Islam will never waver.
Ya Rabb, You alone can help me be Your Slave
Here I am, praying and trying to be brave
For none can ever guide anyone to the straight path
Other than Allah, to Whom I too shall be brought back.
Let me not waste the life and blessings You've showered
Let me not be one of the misguided
Change me ya Allah, ya Allah change me
I can only rely upon Your Will and Mercy.
Ameen.
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