LOVE OR LUST?

Distance

Another day without him in my life. It has been five days since we didn't talk. He didn't even try to talk to me after that, thinking of that I was devastated but I understand no one can ever endure that much arrogance behavior of anyone so It was total fool of me in thinking that he would do some efforts to talk to me when I was the one who blocked him without any good reason. I was missing him so much. I never thought his absence would ever bother me like this. I used to look at his picture from blocked contacts. I felt so pathetic doing that but I didn't have any other option to talk to him when I miss him. Distance really sucks and I can feel that within me. Our lives were now worlds apart, separated by time, circumstance, and the unbridgeable chasm of money. I wanted to talk to him but there's something inside me which is stopping from doing that. He affected me, even when he was absent. Distance teaches you most important life lessons and this is my phase of learning those lessons. At this point of time I understood the importance of his love more importantly his presence in life. I thought of texting him but what if he hates me now, that's not the reason if I love him I need to talk to him and it doesn't matter how much it took me to get him but I am not gonna let him go and it's fine even if it would be our long distance relationship. I unblocked him and waited for his text on snapchat but even an hour later there's no text from him. I thought it's my mistake instead of waiting for his text, I can also do it for us so just be on the safe side I send him a meme and he replied to that. I am literally a bitch instead of groveling I started doing stupid pranks with him. I wrote,"Hey Kartik, it's not Radhika this side. I am her friend Sneha, she gave me her id. She told me what happened between you two and I really am sorry for all that but don't mind you can talk to me, just forget about her." He was so confused and was not ready to believe that it's not me but after a point he started believing my nonsense. I proposed him with Sneha's name but he rejected saying that he only loves Radhika(me). I blushed after seeing that text. I told him that it's not Sneha, it's always me and it's gonna be me always. He wasn't at all mad at me. He said,"I don't know why did you block me but I am fine as long as you realized your mistake and come back to me and don't ever dare to do such pranks because Kartik is yours* EXCLUSIVELY*." I was happy and excited for this new wave of love in my life. I want to correct all my mistakes by loving him so fucking much. I wanted to make him feel like that LOVE is not a just a four alphabetical letter, it's so much more than that. I wanted to make him feel like it's that love which he can't feel somewhere or with anyone else. I started loving him so much and will always love him no matter what. I am so lucky to have him in my life. I never confessed my feelings to him but I started talking to him as if we are in a relationship. He talks to me in the same lovey-dovey manner. We both feeling a different kind of happiness and excitement every day. After a day or two I told him about that I am going for shopping with my cousins. He made a plan to meet me, I denied because of fear but after his so many convincing reasons I said yes. I was so excited to meet him after two months. We never talked in person ever because we met in a family wedding so this time it's gonna be our official first meeting. I was so excited to meet him. We started talking about our first meeting. It's so fun talking about all this. We are finally happy together and giving each other chance.