The restart

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Longing has already become the most normal feeling I have, the desire to see you, hug you, feel your touch, I still haven't gotten over your departure "maybe I'll never get over it" oh my love, losing you was never a way out for me, yet I miss you touching me, your look still brings me the same feeling I had the first time, I still sleep with your sweater as if that sweater was a reason for you to come back, I still look for your gaze in other eyes, your kisses in other kisses, your touch in other touches, your flirtatious way in other flirtatious ways, but I don't even find your way of looking at me with the smile of a spoiled child, I confess that it scares me sometimes not being able to forget anything about you, I confess that I still have our photos saved the seven keys for no one to take from me, I confess that you see our photos every day to feel that I still have you even if it's for a photo, maybe that hurts me even more or maybe that's what's wrong to keep me standing until today , saying your name or even seeing you got harder for me, seeing that our love ended in such a strange way that I can't get over it, could you tell me where I went wrong with you? or what should I have done but love you? saying goodbye is made even more difficult for me because we've never been kind enough to say goodbye. Maybe that's what still makes me think you'll come back, seeing you happy gives me relief but at the same time a very big pain because I can't bring you the happiness you wanted so much. You know, maybe if you had said goodbye to me that day, or even told me that you hated me today, I wouldn't miss you, but I wouldn't be writing this chapter with my eyes full of tears, loving you is being the worst lesson in life . my life, but this shows me that it will be the best learning I've had, trusting that you would be my eternal home still torments me a lot. a tremendous void that you left me.