Brothers don't kiss this way / taekook _ vkook

chapter 20

In the last chapter:

take good care of yourself, you'll never see me again I promise you that, and even if we met in any place you'll never have to deal with me I'll be just a stranger to you, bye tae"

And with that he was gone

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Taehyung's POV:

I couldn't believe it

He was gone because of something I said when I was drunk and mad?

But I think he is right

Why would I demand for my feelings to be considered when I decided to leave him without thinking how he would feel

I guess the blame is on me after all

I fell on my knees on the ground outside of the house and I was shocked

"honey, honey what happened?"

I hear my mom asking but I couldn't answer

I couldn't fucking say anything

The guilt was eating me

I was mad but this time at myself not at jungkook

I was wrong the whole time and I even blamed him

"honey why are you crying?"

What? I didn't feel my tears running down my cheeks

I got up and went up to my room

I locked the door and started crying and hitting myself

My parents could hear me crying and they are banging on my door trying to convince to open the door and tell them what was wrong

And they said that they will fix it

What the hell was I supposed to tell them

'hey mom, hey step dad, I am in love with my fucking step brother and not only that, he loves me too since we were little, and the best part is that he moved out and left because of my stupid ass'

Yeah that would be great to say

I have to fix this

I can't keep myself and him hurting for something that we didn't even had a choice in it

I can't leave him heartbroken because of me

I can see the sadness in his eyes

I can see that he is hurting

And I can't be the reason without fixing it

I know now that I was stupid for taking this decision

He is the one that I love, he is my only one

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