I CAN SHOW MY FEELINGS TO YOU // Spock x Reader

ST P1 - The begining

Spock was never liked by Vulcans. Children never wanted to play with him. Adults looked at him with disgust and disappointment. His father was a well respectable men, until he decided to get married with a human women. What was even more unacceptable he decided to have a child with her - half Vulcan, half human - Spock.

Y/N was a human girl. Her father was an Earth ambassador on Vulcan. He moved with his wife because they were in love with the traditions and mentality of Vulcan people. Y/N was born on Vulcan but it was hard for her to grow up there. She neither felt a Vulcan or human. Wasn't accepted by both of the raises.

That's why Y/N and Spock became best friends. They were both outsiders and they only had each other in the world. Only Y/N understood Spock and only Spock understood Y/N.

When Spock was only 11 he ended up in a fight with some Vulcan boys. They were laughing at his mother and his human side. Nothing strange that he got angry. He ran up to his father, but Sarek only looked at him with distance and said
- You should have kept your emotions to your self. That's what real Vulcan would do
Spock felt like he would cry any moment. But he didn't want to. He wanted to be the true Vulcan, his dad would be proud of. So he went to the only place he felt safe - small garden behind the Earth ambassador house. Y/N was sitting there as she usually did reading some book. She heard a little noise so she turned back and see Spock full of sadness. She put her book on the grass and moved to the eage of the stone she was sitting on. Spock lied down om her knees as she hummed him some chilling song and played with his hair. She was all he needed. She knew exactly how he felt and he didn't need to use any words while he was with her. She was made for him. And he was made for her.

10 years later

Y/N was sitting under the Vulcan academy waiting for Spock. Today was the big day and they will discover if he was accepted or not. She, as a total human, didn't have any chances. But Spock was not only a clever man, but also a son of ambassador Sarek himself. Y/N was so stressed so she had no idea how much time had passed. Ten minutes or an hour? Suddenly she heard a sound of door being closed with aggression. She knew one think - he didn't make it. Spock was walking down the stairs nervously. Y/N run up to him.
- Can you imagine that they didn't looked at my science work. They didn't even asked me a one question. All they think about is my DNA - said Spock
- So what are you going to do now? Go to the Starflet Academy? - asked Y/N
- I will no matter my father like it or not. I will show the council how big mistake they made. And you will go with me and we could be together as we always wanted to

3 years later
Spock was standing casually, watching some group of cadets trying to pass Kobayashi Maru test. He didn't really payed attention to it since he knew it was impossible to pass, he programmed it that way.
- Sir, they won - said one of the officers to him
- What!? - said Spock angrily
He went to the controlling window and saw a blonde, smiling proudly young man
- That is not possible!

- What happened? - asked Y/N with worried expression on her face after seeing angry Spock coming into her room
It wasn't easy to see a Vulcan angry, but after all these years she could tell what he was feeling by little gestures.
- We have to join the disciplinary proceeding right know - answered Spock
- Why? - Y/N packed all her stuff into her desk and left her room with Spock
- Some stupid, arrogant cadet James Kirk cheated during the test! He won Kobayashi Maru!
- Hey, call down - said Y/N grabbing his hand to stop him - It's just a cadet. You will prove him wrong. They will punish him. You will improve the security system. It will all be fine
- I know it will - he answered, even though Y/N knew that he was panicking
- By the way - she asked - Did they really ask for me on the procedure or was it your idea?
- Is it really important whose idea was it? - said Spock and Y/N raised her eyebrows - It was mine
Then Spock took the place on the bench as Y/N sighed and joined him.

- Hey who is that girl talking with my favorite non-emotional officer - asked Kirk laughting
- Its officer Y/N L/N - said one of Kirks cadets friends - They are lovebirds
- No way - laughted Kirk - Mr Vulcan having emotions?
- I don't believe it - said Leonard
- Me too bro - answered Kirk still not taking the disciplinary prosedure serioulsy
Then the court joined the meeting and whole hall went quiet.
- Officer Spock - said one of the capitans - What are your charges for cadet James Tiberius Kirk?
- Capitan - started Spock, while Y/N smiled at him - Cadet Kirk was cheating during the very important Kobayashi Maru test
- It's unfair - shouted Kirk - You made the test impossible to pass
- Learning how to lose is a part of traning, Mr Kirk - answered Spock calmly - I would like apply to remove Mr James Kirk from Star Fleet academy
- What?! - shouted Kirk
The procedding was interuped by the alarm - distress signal from Vulcan.