I CAN SHOW MY FEELINGS TO YOU // Spock x Reader

ST P3 - Sarek and Spock confesions

Two security officers stepped on the bridge with two hostages.
- Sir - said on of them - We just found those two next to the water tanks
Spock shot them a glare.
- How is this possible? - he asked, looking at Kirk - How were you able to transport here will being in a warp?
- Don't answer this emotionless robot, Scotty - said Kirk
- What? - muttered Spock, and Y/N could tell he is getting close to losing his temper
- You heard me - continued Kirk - Always so stoic and serious. Mr I don't feel anything. Even after destruction of your home planet. Even after the murder of your own mother! This is cruel Spock. I just guess you never loved her, if you don't care about her even after her death
- Kirk, stop it! - shouted Uhura
Y/N knew that Kirk pushed it too much. She gently grabbed Spocks arm, trying to calm him down.
- Even her - Kirk started to get more agressive - Poor officer Y/N L/N. She joined Starfleet for you. Always by your side, not questioning your decisions, always smiling for you. Everybody in the Academy was gossiping that you two are in love. But now I can tell that this is just a one side feeling. You are using her. Playing with her emotions, for your own use! You are nothing but a cruel monster that doesn't care about anything and anyone, Spock
It was too much. Spock lost control, snaped and lunged Kirk, ruthlessly beating and strangling him to the point of nearly killing him.
- Spock! Stop! - shouted Y/N - He is not worth it!
- Spock, stop! - commanded Sarek, Spocks father
Suddenly Spock stopped and look at Kirk terrified. He realized how far he has gone.
- I'm not capable of making decisions so I relive myself of duty - he said and left the bridge
Y/N tried running after him but she was stopped by Kirk.
- I would like you to stay on the bridge, Miss L/N - he ordered
- Oh and why is that Mr Kirk - she snapped - Who are you to boss me around?!
- I'm a Capitan of this ship - he calmly answered
- I now you are young, but this is not how things work in Starfleet - Y/N shouted, with tears in her eyes - You can't just promote yourself to Capitan
- He can - interupped Sulu - Capitan Pike promote him to first officer before he left
- So naturally after Capitan Spock resigning, First Officer become a Capitan - continued Chekov
- That's why I order you to stay on the bridge, Miss L/N - Kirk said, smiling
- If anyone is a monster on this ship, it's you - whispered Y/N, and took her place next to Uhura

Spock returned to the transporting room, being followed by his father.
- Spock - he said calmly - Talk to me Spock. I know we never used to do that, but I feel you need it
Spock lean on the wall, trying to control emotions inside him - anger and sadness fighting with eachother.
- I'm conflicted - he finally answered - I never let emotions take control over me. But now, I fell a rage toward Nero that I can not control. And I know it is because he, ... he killed her
- Son - Sarek put his hands on his sons arms - I'm not her but we both know what she would say. Your mother you like you not to control what you feel. Don't feel ashamed because of your human side. It is a gift, not a curse. And if you ever wonder - you are a perfect Vulcan yourself. Vulcans feel emotions too. I do. That is why I married her, because I loved her. With my whole heart
Spock looked his father in the eyes, taking a deep breath.
- She loved her - continued Sarek - Your mother. Always would talk how proud of you she is to have Y/N by your side. I know you are scared of others reaction. I was too. But I would love her. To become a part of our family. Now come back to this bridge and do what you need to do
Spock nod and led back to the bridge.

The Narada had already arrived at Earth, drilling directly into San Francisco. Kirk in consultation with Spock decided to leave warp in Titans atmosphere, to stay undetected by Narada.
- Sulu! - shouted Kirk - If there would be any chance to destroy Narada, even while me, Spock or Pike will be still on board, don't hesitate to do so. This is Capitans orders
Sulu saluted back with worried face.
- Capitan! - interrupted Y/N - I ask for permission to acompany and Officer Spock on Narada!
- Permission denied - answered Kirk - With your knowledge and experience you are needed here on the bridge
- Kirk, please - Y/N said, beggining him
- Officer L/N - suddenly said Spock - May I have a word? In private
Y/N nodded, leaving Kirk and following Spock out from the brigde.
- Spock, please - she said, as they left the room - Tell Kirk I need to go with you
- No - Spock objected - You will stay here
- But ... - Y/N tried interupting him
- Y/N - Spock said softly, grabbing her hand, which was a suprise, even for Y/N herself - I lost one women I love today. I won't let anyone to take the other one too
Y/N blushed. After these years it was quite obvious for both of them what they feel towards eachother, but Spock never said it out loud before. Y/N never dreamed of him saying he love her. She understood his Vulcan side and what they shared before was more then enough for her. But this. It was something that made her heart melt.
- You just better come back, Officer Spock - she said with small tears in her eyes
- Of course, Officer L/N - he said, his eyes sparkling with happiness - I think I have an important thing to ask you after all of that
And then he did something even more shocking. He lean down and kissed Y/N on the forehead. Y/N blushed even more, her cheeks burning. She looked at him with suprise to see him, slightly smiling. That wasn't a Vulcan thing at all. But she didn't have time to ask him about it since Kirk already walked out from the bridge too.
- We have to go, Spock - he said, and Spock followed him to the lift, leaving Y/N confused

- Sorry I interupped the moment - said Kirk, smiling in the lift - Won't happen again, I promise
Spock stayed quiet.
- You know after all of that, us being friends now. I would love to become your best man - Kirk continued
- I would very much not want that - answered Spock, not even looking at Kirk
- How did you even find her? - Kirk asked - I mean, looking at you, I would rather suppose Vulcans are your type
- I don't think that is any of your consern, Mr Kirk - Spock said calmly
The lift stayed quite for few minutes.
- She was my only friend back there on Vulcan - Spock interrupted the silence - She was Earth ambasador daughter. Vulcan children never accepted her, they didn't want to talk to her, they made laught of her. But she always had bright smile on her face, like it didn't hurt her at all. At first I didn't want to talk to her too, since I thought that being friends with her will ruin my chances to be accepted by normal Vulcan children. But then I realized that their friendship is absolutely no worth it, comparing it to hers
Kirk looked at Spock curious. Maybe he was wrong all over. Maybe Spock had more emotions in him, that he could ever imagine. The lift finally stopped and both men went to the hangar.