How to Tame a Dragon

0.1 ⋆ JiSuNG's DiArY !

dear diary,

actually...i don't know how to start off diaries...journals? i don't know.

for some reason, it feels better and less corny to call it a journal rather than a diary.

why am I here again???

oh right! therapy!

my therapist gave me this stupid book and said "write down your emotions"... so here i am... writing! :)

i'll call it 'Han's Emotion Journal' ... is that lame? (don't worry, i'll think of a better name later)

anyway,

right now i'm not feeling anything so

i'll talk about something that made me really angry

to the point where it's three months later and i haven't forgotten

yes, the fire.

i remember that headmaster kang (satan himself) said something about my behavior that pissed me off. i can't remember why it pissed me off so much, but i just know that i was really mad

more mad than i'd ever been in my life

and i love my mom so much but the sound of her voice annoyed me too.. a lot of things annoyed me. everything annoyed me.

the heat fucking annoyed me too

very inconvenient how as soon as i get mad, the temperature rises to 35 fucking degrees.

when you're mad, you really don't want to be in a hot room because it just ruins everything.

anger is already hot... so you can imagine how i felt.

it was like i was burning alive in that stuffy ass office.

and then boom — the fucking place is on fire...

...

i can't really remember much of what happened while the place was burning down

and i don't think i really want to

even talking about it makes me think about a certain someone.

so im glad i don't really remember. that would scar me for life i think... and i just turned 18 so i can't get scarred again

my life has just started.

my therapist says that's due to something called trauma.

trauma apparently causes amnesia or some shit or whatever

i wasn't really listening .

...

i don't understand why i have to see a therapist

she's a nice little lady who gives me candy on good days.

and every day is a good day so she gives me candy every time i see her

which is 2 times a week by the way

she asks me about a certain someone a lot.. she says that my inability to talk about him shows that i haven't moved on

but trust me, i HAVE moved on (i'm talking about him right now arent i?)

i'm going to a new school too!

mom and i moved after the whole fire thing & now school is starting soon so that's cool i guess

we moved alll the way to pixus isle. apparently there used to be fairies here

anyway

there's been a lot of moving on

i'm looking forward to my new school.

and i'll be good this time! i'm sure if i get expelled this time i have to go to normal people school...

i'm ready to move on with my life! move on from corvus, move on from that stupid bitch kang (rip), and most importantly, move on from him.

wish me luck!