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𝑈𝑛𝑤𝑎𝑛𝑡𝑒𝑑 𝐴𝑝𝑜𝑙𝑜𝑔𝑖𝑒𝑠 - 𝑃ℎ𝑒𝑜𝑛𝑖𝑥 ||𝕋𝕎: 𝕊ℍ

I sit in the corner of homeroom

Asking myself what to do

And hoping I only go noticed by a select few

As I stare at the morning dew

Then, from the doorway

Bright red hair flows my way

Much to my dismay.

And I begin to wish again, that I begged you to stay.

You come to me

A big smile on your face

One that makes me want to flee

As my heart throbs from what I see.

How could you do this to me?

I act like I forgive what you did

An action I wish I could forbid

And instead, I choose to stare at the single branch of orchid.

Even as I try to ignore you

You try to tell me what you know as true.

And I silently apologize to my classmates for this awkward view.

And suddenly, an apology flies from your mouth

And I cringe, head resting down

Please be quiet, we don't want this going around.

Our classmates don't know what we're talking about.

Tears fill my eyes

Much to your surprise

I'm sorry, I know you have never seen me cry.

But right now, I have to let this slide.

I close my eyes, tears running down my face

Why do this in such a place?

Why apologize for your sick ways

Of your friends breaking up with me for you, and it wasn't even face to face?

You did this to yourself

So why are you acting like it's the parallel

And pretending to act 'oh well'?

What the hell?

Please, stop talking

Start walking

And stop stalking

You're unwanted, stop hawking.

Then you leave

And I feel like I can breathe

Now, people stare at my form

They know I'm not a norm

My hoodie hugs my small frame

And my body steadily continues to wane

In my head, I'm alone again

My wrists ache

From the blade I once held that left red lines in its wake

I feel so fake

And I'm acting like I'm fine, it's a piece of cake.

I wipe my tears, my smile awake.

I can't let the tears show

I can't let anyone ever know

About the hardships I have at home.