𝙼𝙰𝙵𝙸𝙰 𝙻𝙾𝚅𝙴 ( 𝚉𝙼 )

CHAPTER 50

Zayn POV:

You know the feeling of getting back to home? Peace, happiness, satisfaction, complete. Thats what I felt today when my girl ran into my arms again.

She is sound safe and healthy. Plus she is glowing.

After we had our moment, I excused myself to have a small talk with Paul.

"How did she came back?" I asked.
"She was fully aware of the surroudings during when she was in your house boss. She acted like she was fainted but she wasnt." He explained. I cursed quietly and rubbed my forehead.

"Did she... did .. hurt her?" I asked.
"Nope. She didnt. I made sure Clara to give foods and clothes to her. She didnt tortured her at all. All she did was.. she did her own shits and she barely sees her at house"
I sighed in relief and looked at Flora who is already looking at me. I gave her sweet smile which she did.

I miss her smile. Seeing her smiling face. The way her eyes squinted and her cheeks will be more chubby. Thats make me want to pinch with it. Cute. I smiled lastly and looked away.

"How is your wife?"
"She is.. copying well. Just baby steps for now. She couldnt walk as her leg injured. Flora doesnt know about this. " He said.

I nodded my head, "Thank you for taking care of her. I really owned you alot" I thanked him while shaked his hand. He smiled and gesture me to join with the boys.

Once we were at home, Flora was the first one who went straight to the bedroom and I went to check Zara.

I opened her room door, seeing her sleeping. "Let her sleep man" Harry said behind me. I closed the door quietly and looked up at him. "Tomorrow its going to be surprise for her. Let her take rest. You too mate. It was exhausting weeks. Now, finally we are free" Harry said while he stretched his body and I can hear his muscles cracking sound.

Damn, that much tired huh.

"Nope. This is not the end. Not until Emiliana dies" I frowned as I played with my rings. "What are you saying Zayn?" Harry questioned me.

"Yeah.. thats true. She still up for it. We have to be very more careful with this." I said in serious tone which he gulped and nodded his head.

"Good. Goodnight Harry and your room is at that corner" I said as I pointed his room, he scratched his head, and walked away.

Called me a protective brother but thats what I am. I dont care whether they are couple or not but hearing my sister moan of pleasure makes me more feel disgusting. I mean.. she is virgin as I know and still she is, I guess, so they have to take baby steps for it. Also, she is still studying so Im scared they might lead one another and BOOM come up with a baby. NOPE.

No baby till she finishes her studies and get a job.

I get in my room and saw Flora sitting in the bed.

She wears a white silky sleeveless gown that above her knees and her brown hair freely spread on the pillow. Her face features are soft and relax.

Seeing her like this, thinking how hard it is for her to stay at the hell hole. She definately cried alot, thinking about getting back at me. Thank God, Paul and Clara were there, if not... I would die for sure.

I shaked it off and sat beside her bed. We talked little and yeah.. we kissed again. By kissing her and seeing her in this gown just want me to pound on her  so hard. To show how much I missed her, how much I love her.

But.....
She stopped as she wants to share a matter to me before things could go far.
I frowned annoyed,
Seriously, cockblocking by my love. Fuck.
The next thing, she came closer and kissed and sucked my neck and earlobe which made me moan but the thing that she said made my world stopped for second.

"Im pregnant" she whispered.
I was...... shocked. Too shocked. To stunned. I was like immediately changed to a statue, like I saw Medusa's eyes and she strucked me to become a statue.

"Say something" she said quietly.

What does she expect me to say?

I slowly turned my head to her and shaked my head, "No" she looked at me, her eyebrows furrowed and mouth slightly open.

"What did you mean by No?" She asked.
"No. No means No. I... do you... when did you find this?" I asked after I get up from the bed.

"During when I was in Emiliana's house." She answered.
"How did you know you are pregnant?" I asked.

She stands up now and standing infront closer to me, "Zayn.. I was having this type of syptoms, vomitting, nausea, mood swings for the past few days, but I just shrugged it off. But after few days I was in Emi's, my morning sickness was so much worst. So Clara helped me by giving an extra pregnancy stick that she kept with her. When I checked on it, it shows that Im pregnant." She finished and bring my hand to her tummy, "Its yours, Zayn" She said as she smiled at me. Tears are leaking from her dark eyes yet she smiled at me.

I shaked my head, take my hand away from her.

"No... this cant be happened" I muttered as I close my face with my hands.
"How??? We were so cautious about it" I asked as I turned to look at her. "I dont know Zayn, but there is one time, I felt some liquid in me, but I thought it was mine." She elaborated more to me.

I groaned and gripped my hair so harsh. "You know Im not ready right?" I said as I stand infront of her with my hands on my hips. "What?" She asked disbelief.

"What? Im not ready to be a father, Flora. I know its mine, I trust you. Alot. I know its my fault and all. I shouls be very more cautious about it. But I cant.. I cant be a father now" I explained as I did gesture with my hands.

"What are you talking about Zayn? Im also not ready to be a mom. But we can do it togather yeah" she said calmly as she careess my face.

Why she is so calm?
The fact that Im a father is making me more anxious. I want kids with her, yes. Grow a family with her, yes. But not now. Not until everything settle down. Now its not the best time to have baby. It would be danger to them. I dont want it. I dont want baby now.

I dont want baby.

I dont want baby.

I dont want baby.

"I dont want baby" I said unknowingly which I know by the sudden gasp from Flora.

"Zaynn?" Her eyes tears spilling on her cheeks, her chubby cheeks and pointy nose are in pink even her ears.

"I dont want the baby. Yes. I dont want. Abort it" I gritted while looking at her tummy. "What... ARE YOU CRAZY? THIS IS CRIME. YOU WANT TO KILL YOUR BABY?" She screamed as she covered her tummy by her hands.

"I dont care what you going to do with it but I dont want it" I stubbornly said as I didnt looked at her hurtful eyes.

Deep down it hurts for me to see her eyes, to see her in this state but something in me screaming to be heartless. So I can get over with the fact of being a father.

"Zayn. I cant belive you said that. Baby.. our kid, we made it out of love-"

"I DONT CARE." I screamed which she flinched.

I shaked my head and I walked away the room. Leave her alone cry in the room. I straight away went to the mini bar at my house and had some few drinks.

Fuck, I was happy, so fucking happy when I get my girl back but this is what she did. Telling her being pregnant. Like what the fuck.

At the same time, I should be aware more when doing the deeds.

Because of me.. this happen.

Fuck.

I fucking hate my life.

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