time check, it's 1:21 am right and i'm seriously drowning in my thoughts
idk everything is just so noisyyy i think it's from the anxiety of going back to school :( i really hate my school rn and everything is just suffocating i hate it :(
hijo de puta ayoko na talaga 😭
anyways, i'm going on a vacation even tho it means being absent lmao but it's fine i don't really care anymore
it's been so long since i've been to a beach! now that i'll be surrounded by ocean, i hope my mind calms a bit and not get too dependent on my phone omfg there's like no wifi there
one problem of mine too is my social anxiety :( everytime i get used to being by myself, it just gets worse :(
this is so saddd
i'm too dramatic lmao so i'm just gonna make kwento that one dream i had 😭
so there's this girl that i forgot who and she's like the same age as me, and she was like loved by everyone, even my family. i'm the only one who gets like bad vibes from her and i tried telling it to my mom, but she won't believe me 😭 she even told me that she's planning on adopting her like???
i seriously keep on telling them that she's bad (and i witnessed her do smth bad but i forgot) but they still won't believe me 😭 and i was frustrated and shit and went, "if i turn out to be wrong, i'll k-word myself," LMAOOO but they STILL won't believe me
and then after some time, her dad (?) appeared and told them that i was telling the truth, and then the girl started crying and shit and the JAEMIN (???) suddenly appeared too and comforted her 💀
i can still feel the betrayal when i woke up LMAOOO
anyways matutulog na c akez
