My Diary-Found

"Lol us"?

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Honestly you make me regret all this,
Didn't imagine an outcome like this.

Not your fault my insecurities are acting up now
Wishing I never met you right now.

"She is nice and kind"
I swear I believe that...
'Maybe better than me?'
Ofcourse I knew that.

I knew you guys looked better together.
Maybe you didn't see or maybe my overthinking makes me think about how you still look at her.

It's fine really, laughable, how I was the one who expected too much.
Wishing, maybe you were into me as much.

Honestly again, I can't say if this is a feeling of love.
Cuz I never experienced, and would want to experience this word.

My words might not rhyme or maybe they do?
But I really wish you guys stay together unlike we do.

Even though I act like everything is fair.
but it hurts too much, that it's becoming unfair.

I'm just venting i know me too much.
'Maybe someone would want to know me as much.'

I can't leave you guys alone but i don't want be between you either...
I feel like an unwanted thorn trying to speak while you guys discuss your stuff together...

I realized we really don't share anything in common to talk about.
Maybe u too never noticed or maybe u did and felt it was nothing to think about.

I can't say it because I know she is amazing..

'I feel like only I'm trying.
Maybe you are but not on me.'

Call it my attitude but you make me angry on you and me.
Maybe we should stop this joke because I don't wanna stay inbetween.

You guys be happy forever!
I don't wanna be her and i know who you (now its just I who) deserve better!

Don't overthink I'm not kidding when I say I'm too easy.
A joke made me like you so i will walk away cuz I don't wanna be anymore this easy.

'I hate you so much'

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Relationship strained, 3 Bonds
broken, in the middle of an
insecure breakup check 2022