You Made Me A Poet

Venting is good for the air

>Trigger warning<

"You write to many love poems"

I write love poems instead of suicide notes.
I remind myself I am capable of feeling more then hate.
I don't give death a voice today.
I don't give sadness the breaths it needs from me.
I write poems about her eyes so I won't cry, sometimes distraction is better then action.
I write love poems instead of a list of things that could kill me.
I don't think about the knifes or the cars or guns and especially not the water.
I don't think about the fucking water!
I don't think of becoming a ship lost at sea or about drowning.
I don't think about the taste of the Beth water in my mouth, in my lungs, in my body.
I don't think about it filling my lungs or stealing my breath I don't think anything taking my breath but her and her smile.
I don't care how cheesy that sounds but it's better writing love poems then my own obituary....