Cold hearted

"If I had only known the consequences"

I sat quietly on a chair listening to what was spoken with many other people around me doing the same. We all looked at a man talking while pointing at a blackboard.
He talked about the missions we were going to enter.
He pointed to the places and peoples in the missions.

I work in the military.
I usually train for war, but I was given the opportunity to join this mission and get paid a lot for it.
"of course I took the opportunity". The mission was for mostly qualified people.
who had trained for this, but they were short on them.
I guess I was given the opportunity, because I am quite close to the qualifications and I will say I'm quite pro.
The mission was to kill a president, because he had done a lot of harm and now was a problem and a danger for his country and for the world.
The president was in Korea to make a deal with a korean mafia. Therefore the president had no persinall, pro security guards, only the mafia gang.
And you should never trust mafias so maybe if we are lucky the mafia group will not do their best and just hand him over.

I was in the back seat of one of the cars that drove us to the mafias base, where the president made his deal.
The car was packed full of the other agents, and gear for the mission.
I could hardly breathe in here.
To add to it, I was wearing a big black suit. I had our leader in my ear going through the plan again to ensure that we had got it.
I was listening carefully so that I won't make any mistakes.
The car ride was around 3 hours long.
Because the mafia's base was in the middle of nowhere.

When we arrived, everyone placed themselves in the places we were given for our missions.
My mission was just to look after a secret exit so the president couldn't escape.
It was kinda a boring thing to do, but I am only doing this for the money. "Hihi".

I was just hiding in a bush watching the exit when suddenly I heard a gunshot and a loud manly scream. After that there was more screaming and more gunshots.
The screaming came from the other military guys.
Something must be wrong.
I don't feel so safe anymore.
It's about life and death now.
I heard chaos in my ear and the only thing I got out of the chaos was that it was an ambush, they knew we were coming and what our plan was.
Suddenly I hear the leader speaking.
My jaw dropped and I could feel the fear coming when he told me I was the only one still alive in the mission.
I began to feel the dread running down my spine.
If I was the only one who hadn't been killed, I most likely would be soon.
"You must complete the mission,"
I heard the leader say.
What the hell!?. "It's suicide," I try to say.
"I don't care, you joined this mission and you took the risk."
the f@ck.
"Sorry, but I didn't know it was a suicide mission,"
I said trying to make a joke to lett my own mood.
"It didn't work btw".
The leader didn't care and told me to do the missions if not I would get kicked out of the military and my family name would get shame. "Was this mission that important that they would risk one's life?".

I accepted my fate and slowly started to walk towards the door to the secret exit.
I would not let my family suffer for my mistakes.
"If I had only known the consequences".

I pulled the door towards me and heard an agonizing creak.
I walked into the dark hallway.
I turned on the flashlight that I had in one of my many pockets and was met with something that looked like a huge maze.
I walked slowly into the maze.
"Go to the right," the leader said into my ear.
I followed what my leader said as he said the way into the mafias base.
And suddenly a door appeared in front of me about 10 meters away.
I felt relieved.
Finally I was done with the nerve killing maze, but I knew that the mission just had begun.
Once I open that door, there is only one way back.
And that is to kill the president. "open the door," the leader said in my ear.

I was about to walk towards the door, but was stopped by a click. The door handle lowered and the door was being opened.
"I'm fuched".
I heard a beep in my ear.
"They disconnected".
My team had left me behind.
I am on my own now.

As the leader told us when he was explaining the mission.
"Once you get caught, you are on your own".
the military can't risk being hacked.

The door opened fully and a tall boy dressed in a black military uniform and a mask came out.
We looked at each other for a while, it felt like hours.
I just stood there in shock and horror.
Horror to get caught, and horror to just move.
Maybe if I'm standing completely still, no.

"I have to run".

With a fast reaction, I jumped backwards and started running.
I ran as fast as I could, but he reacted just as quickly as me.
He was right behind me, only a few meters away and slowly but surely he caught up with me.
I ran for my life.
"The saying literally".
If I was caught now it was out with me.
I turned to the left and ran without knowing where I was going.
Just hoping to shake him off me.

Suddenly I feel something grabbing me from behind and I fall straight to the ground.
I quickly turn around so I can see him.
My face meets his, only our masks between us, covering our faces and identity.
He sat on top of me.
Suddenly I felt a hard hit to my face.
One hit led to another.
I could feel myself starting to bleed up and my face felt hot.
"Why did I have to say yes to this assignment," I thought to myself.
"I am dying".
"I should have just become a barista".
I turn and twist around. I have to escape, if I don't I've failed.
Failed my mission, and failed my life.

I grab him and magically manage to drag him off me.
Enough to escape.
I quickly got up and started running.
I can feel it burning all over my body.
All the places I was hit.
"I'm definitely going to get some bruises tomorrow",
"if there is a tomorrow thought".
Suddenly I feel a hold on my suit and I am pulled into a room by the same guy.

I'm in shock, I have no idea what was happening.
The energy I had just seconds ago suddenly left me and all I feel is pain.
I was so close, so close to making the mission.
But my body was no match for a well trained boy.
The room I got dragged in was dark.
Everything was dark and I could not see, then I heard boots running past from outside the door.
Waint, did the guy just save me from the other in his gang?
"Did I just get saved by a mafioso?" I thought to myself.
It was too dark to see anything.

When I finally got used to the dark I faced the boy.
"Why did he save me?".
Suddenly I felt a stillness in my neck.
I looked at him, then my eyes falled to his hand.
He had stuck what looked like a needle into my neck.
"Oh, no..,",
"I'm so done for."
I quickly pushed him off me.
Not that it would help, but I could at least try to fight back before I pass out.

I grabbed the door handle, but then my whole body collapsed to the floor.
I got so tired.
My legs weren't strong enough to hold me up anymore.
My eyes closed and everything around me got dark.