Cold hearted

"What the f0ck!!"

It was the first day of collage, I'm so excited.
I woke up at 6am, checked social media and went to shower.
When I was done I put on the clothes Jeongin and Han chose for me yesterday.
They begged me to decide what I was going to wear and said I had a bad sense of fashion.
After i was done around 7am i walked my way down the stairs to be greeted by Seungmin's smiling and making breakfast.
"Good morning Jisoo", he said with the cutest smile.
"Good morning, what are you making?", I asked him politely. "Today I tried some British style".
I looked at him dumbfounded.
I have no clue what British breakfast is. Like I know it's British and breakfast, but?
" Sausages, bacon, fried eggs, fried tomatoes, fried mushrooms, toast, fried grated potato and baked beans'".
I made a "wow" face and sat down at the kitchen island.
Once Seungmin was done with the breakfast, Bangchan and Jeongin had already come down and sat beside me.
The other boys won't eat with us because they worked late yesterday with mafia things and needed sleep.

When I was done with breakfast I looked at the clock.
"OH DAM, IT".
I said as I ran to the hall and started to put on my shoes.
"What is it?"Bangchan came worried behind me.
"It's 15 minutes until school starts, I will never make it". I said fake crying.
"Ok, i will start the car, meet me in the garage".
"Thank GOD I have bangchan".
I relaxed a little before I stood up. "Thank you Bangchan for saving my life", I screamed for him to hear me.

Bangchan drove me to school in his car in a comfortable silence.
I tried to relax a little for the first day of college.
I always think it's scary to meet new people, I hope I get at least one friend.

Once we were there I said bye to Bangchan and started to run to where my class was.
There were 5 minutes left to class, so no time to lose.

I walked into the classroom.
There were a few people already there, but not as many as I thought, and lucky the teacher wasn't here. The classroom was built upwards so that everyone could look over whoever was in front of them, like in the cinema.
The room were mostly white and light gray.
There was also a canvas in the front where the class could be learned. The students who had come had sat down at the various desks.
I sat down at a desk in the second back row.
I waited a little before the teacher came in.
"Hello, nice to meet you all.
My name is Kim Nam Go and I will be your main teacher".
We all greeted her and she started to talk about our classes and what we will be learning.
After a 10 min presentation about something I did not understand. She told us we could get some time to get to know each other and walk around school.

I stood up from the chair and started to walk out of the classroom.
Suddenly I got stopped by one girl in my class.
"Hi, I'm Park Boeun".
I looked at her and then smiled. "Hello, nice to meet you, I'm Choi Jisoo".
She looked really kind.
She had long black hair and looked around my age.
I kind of expected people around 3 years younger than me because I was in the military some time, but most of the people were my age or older somehow.
"Cool. by the way, do you want to hang out on campus?".
I just nodded as a yes and we started to walk.
We walked in an awkward silence a little before we came to the canteen. "Hey, do you want something to eat?". She asked me with a kind smile.
"Shure, I'm kinda hungry".
I ordered a croissant and just some orange juice.
When we got our food we sat down at an empty table.
"How old are you?", I asked to litten up the silence.
"I'm 22", she said as she took a bite of her baguette.
"Oh, me too", I said in excitement. "Cooool, sisters".

Boeun was a very funny girl and we talked the rest of the day.
We talked about our life and what we like.
Of course I didn't tell her anything about me living with a mafia group, but I said that I used to be in the military.

Since we had so much fun together, I asked her if she wanted to go to a cafe when school was over.
Of course she said yes.
We went over to one of her favorite cafes and it was so viby.
It had a very bakery vibe with a brown, black color palette, they also had a lot of plants and open big windows facing the street.
We ordered some iced coffee and some cakes and sat down.

Once we had settled, Boeun started to talk,
"so are you dating someone?". I looked at her surprised.
"Me?, does it look like I'm dating". I said with a wrinkled face.
We both started to giggle.
"Ok, but are you into someone then?".
I started to think.
I had kind of forgotten what love was.
"Hmmm, when i think about it, maybe a little".
"What!, who?"
I shaked my head.
I know that kpop idols don't count as a crush, but last time I liked someone it was in middle school.
I actually haven't liked someone since. And JHope is very cute and handsome too.
When it comes to love I always use my brain and not my heart so it's hard for me to come further than just a crush.
"Then, who is it?".
She looks at me cute.
"Its...its my brother's friend", I lied. There is no way I can tell her I like Kpop. she will bully me for life, that I haven't grown up from kpop yet. And saying it was my brother's friend was the best I could come up with.
"oooooo, then I get it".

We talked some more and Boeun told me she had a boyfriend in her hometown, but she can only meet him on vacations.

After hours it had become dark and we said goodbye to each other and parted our ways.
I walked on the lighted streets back home.
It was kind of scary, but also kind of chill.
The silent street was really relaxing. I walked slowly, daising off to fantasy land when suddenly I heard footsteps behind me.
I try to walk faster to get the person of me.
It might just be an ordinary person, but you never know.
As I walked faster the person did too.
Suddenly the person started to run. "What the f0ck!!".
I also started to run, no time to lose.
Suddenly I got kicked to the ground and someone got on top of me.
I am locked to the ground.
The person turns my body around and I see a middle aged man on top of me.
I start to panic.
He suddenly starts to unbutton the shirt Han and Jeungin chose for me.
I started to panic even more.
I see a rock just some inches away and try to stretch my arm to it.
The person is now dragging my shirt off and I'm left in a T-Shirt.
I try my hardest to reach the rock that my face turns red, it's just too far away.
I feel my tears running.
"I don't want this anymore",
"stop it", I cry for help.
He starts dragging my T-Shirt. Suddenly I get a hold of the rock, I take a good hold of it and swing it into the man's face so he falls straight to the ground.
I take the chance to take my stuff and start running to the house.
I prepare my keyes and when I arrive I use no time and lock up the door.
I get in and lock the door again.
I take a deep breath to calm myself down.
The house is dark and i can't see anything, the others must be asleep by now.
I look at the clock and it says 1am. As I walk into the house in the dark, suddenly the light turns on and I see Hyunjin standing by the wall drinking water with an angry look. "Where have you been this late, and what's up with the dirt?", he said in a determined and angry voice.
"I was with a friend, and a man tried to r@pe me". I said as I started walking past him to get to my room.
Suddenly he grabs my arm and pulls me in front of him so we face each other.
I look at him angry in the eyes. "How can you be so calm?", he asked.
I looked him dead in the eye.
My eyes start to burn and I feel like crying again, but I won't.
I won't show him weakness.
I shake him off and start running to my room.
As I enter I lock the room and throw myself on the bed.
I start to burst out crying.
"I almost got raped, of course I'm not calm".
After some time I fell asleep.