Fixed (s4s)

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  Carmen's pov

  "Fuck! Fuck! Fuck!" I screamed throwing tables, chairs, everything that was in my sight. Everyone stood back letting me go on my rampage. I fucked up bad man how could I allow her to hear that, or be anywhere near her saying that. She was just warming up, her light was starting to shine and I fucked it all up.

"She's ookay." My private doctor came downstairs looking around the room full of mess his eyes then reaching me. "Carmen the best thing to do when she wakes up is get her a therapist, she's going to need it."

Therapist?!

"Therapist? For what exactly how is any of that going to help?" I asked.

I knew exactly what was going to help, me letting her go and me being locked up or even dead at this point. Even if all I wanted was for her to be comfortable and happy with me.

"I'm sure whatever happened was severe enough to make her pass out, usually those type of things need to be worked out with coping techniques, or sitting down talking about what could have triggered the attack." He explained.

My blood began to boil thinking of her confiding in someone else. Before I knew it I jacked him up by his white button down collared shirt. "The fuck am I paying you for?"

I could see the fear in his eyes he's known me for years so he knew exactly what I was capable of.

"You trying to say I'm the reason why she passed out?" I asked getting angrier.

"Come on Karma." Cash put her hands around my arm making me slap her in the face letting go of the doctor.

"And you! You don't know how to shut the fuck up!" I lost it I could feel my face getting hotter by the second.

"Carmen I didn't mean for any of this to happen, if I would've known you know-"

"You swear you know me, you're always buzzing around me and you're saying you didn't know?" All the times she felt like she knew me better than anyone else in the gang, but now she didn't know? Fucking pathetic.

"Know what?" Nick asked walking in hand in hand with Ruth.

Zen walked over to them both whispering trying to update them.

"Get out you and you!" I pointed at the doctor and Cash.

The doctor picked up his suitcase laying a piece of paper on the coffee table walking out silently.

-

I walked upstairs to Sages room.

  I got to her door opening it gently peeping my head inside. Her eyes were closed she was at peace being sleep, not awake in this chaos that I created.

I walked in pulling a seat up next to her bed, on the opposite side though. I didn't want to be anywhere in her sight once she woke up.

"I'm sorry, it wasn't very smart to do what I did." I whispered to her. "I wish you would tell me what could make you more comfortable with me."

She moved a bit while grunting I knew she was getting ready to wake up and I prepared myself for anything she'd say to me.

"Fuck my head." She rubbed her forehead with the palm of her hand.

I took a big gulp before standing up to grab the pain medication my doctor left behind for her. "This should help."

Her head shot over in my direction with her eyes bucked out of her head almost could've been a cartoon character. "Are you fucking kidding me?!"