Closet love

Chapter 4: Lessons to learn and lessons to teach:

Unedited. Sorry if there's mistakes. Enjoy the chapter!

What just happened?! I just got engaged and I just saw the guy that I knocked out. Shit. What am I going to do? This kid is going to expose us to the entire school. Neither of us wants that!

"We need to get out of here Jason." I say with a trembling voice. He nodded his head in agreement and we snuck out as quickly as we could.

When we got home we both started to panic. We were both unsure of what to do. So of all the things that could've went down in the living room we were standing in, we started fighting.

"Stop panicking Ashton!" He screamed as I started to feel sick. I was soaking in sweat and I felt like I was going to melt to the floor. I hate it when he screams at me.

"SCREW YOU JASON!" I snap back as the hurt just started to take over.

I could tell he was about to cry, but he kept it contained while in front of me.

"Tonight is a disaster." He said with a faint whisper.

"Jason. I can't be engaged to you. It's too soon. We haven't even known each other four months yet. We haven't come out either! How are we going to explain the ring on my finger when no one knows about us yet?! My parents would kill me anyways!" I say that with truth and we both know it's true. He starts to cry not even trying to hold it in anymore.

"I understand." He said bitterly. It made me flinch. I hated to hurt him but what can a man do? I'm not ready. He's not ready. We're still young. We have plenty of time to get married and start a family. Now just isn't the time.

"I still love you Jason." I say trying to choke back tears. "I love you too." He says back with a red, puffy face from crying. I take off the ring and hand it back to him.

"Save this for when the time is right. We have the rest of our lives to be together. But for now we have things to sort out." I smile faintly and kiss him on the cheek. Then we crawl up to bed and face away from each other and not talking. This is killing me. I wonder what he's thinking. He probably hates me. What have I done?

No. I can't guilt trip myself. I can't be engaged to him. Not yet anyways. So I shake the thoughts away and fall fast asleep. But my last thought before I fall unconscious is the tension between us. I hate it.

I wake up early the next morning and decide to strip my shirt and pants because it's too hot in this damn house. So I go downstairs and make him breakfast with pancakes that I write "I love you" on in whipped cream. I feel bad but I want to wait to marry him until the time is right. He's perfect.

"I love you too Ashton." He says as he comes down the stairs sleepy-eyed (also in his boxers) when he sees the pancakes. My heart is melting. At least he still loves me.

I go over and give him a little kiss on the forehead reassuring him that I was sorry. He looks up at me with his beautiful eyes.

"I understand that you're not ready. I don't think I'm ready either. I'm just scared of losing you, that's why I proposed. You are mine. I won't share or let you go for anything. You are the best part of me. You make me feel complete. You take up 99.9 percent of my heart. If you left I'd be nothing."

"I'm not leaving you Jason. I feel the same. I love you more than anything and I want to start a family with you.... Just not yet. We're going to see my parents later today just so you know. I think it's time I let them know that I've found my one and only, and that you're a guy."

"What if they don't handle it so well? Will you still be able to live with me?"

"I don't care what they say. If they can't support my true colors then they can be without me, and they've been wanting me out of the house since last summer. I think we'll be okay honey."

"Okay. I love you." He says giving me puppy dog eyes. I know he wants a kiss. So I lean in and kiss him and then he eats his pancakes and chases me around the house.

We end up on the couch where he practically body slams me and I push him to the floor and pin him to the floor. I kiss him roughly and I can feel something growing in size against my lower stomach as I show him I'm in control. It's turning him on so much. I love how much effect I have on him.

He tries to get up from under me obviously embarrassed but I don't let him go. Instead I tease him by moving my hand slowly down his stomach to the waistline of his boxers. Then I kiss his chest ever so lightly and get up.

"Why do you always leave me hanging you little doucher?" He says as he smiles and runs upstairs. When he doesn't come back down I go upstairs only to see that he is in the bed... On my side... Jerking off.

"Don't get your nasty little sperms on my side of the bed." I say as I go jump on top of him.

"Maybe if we would go further I wouldn't have to sperm on your side of the bed all the time. But you're side smells like you, and you turn me on." He teases.

"You nasty boy." I tease back and simply get out of the bed, swaying my hips back and forth as I make fun of girls who do this action to get all the guys in bed. I leave the room to go get in the shower when I suddenly find Jason standing behind me, also in the shower with me. I poke his stomach and he looks down at my lower region admiring, but not willing to touch.

"Stop staring." I say as I realize I'm staring at him too. Wow I'm such a hypocrite.

"Sorry. But I want that in my bed. He says in a seductive tone that has me getting turned on. "Must you always be so gross?" I say laughing and I put soap in his hair and wash it while washing my hair too. I get out leaving him hanging once again. I'm good at that aren't I?

We get dressed and I decide to drive this time. We head over to my parent's house, hand in hand in the car until we reach the driveway. We get out of the car and walk to the door where my mother greets us. "Hello Ashton, honey, who's your friend?"

"That's the thing I- we need to talk to you about." I say pointing to Jason. So we go in the house and sit down on the couch where my dad also enters. "Mom, dad. I'm gay. This is my boyfriend, Jason."

My mom looks at me. But her look isn't judging or disgusted like I thought it would've been. It's joyful and supportive. But my dad on the other hand isn't looking so thrilled.

"I knew you were gay! I just wanted to hear you say it." My mom says with a smile and stands up with Jason to give him a hug.

My mom looks at my dad with an angry look. "Stop being like that! If this is the man that's making our son happy then we should support them. Don't be so grouchy."

So we eat a nice family dinner that my mom prepared. My mom is talking away with Jason and my dad is starting to come around to him. "We're living together." I say suddenly, not knowing where the sudden phrase came from. Obviously we're living together.

"I know honey. It's great! I'm so glad to see that you're finally happy! I'm sorry about wanting to kick you out of the house, but I wanted to see you do more than sulk in your room about being lonely. I wanted you to find someone, and you did. I felt bad but this is fantastic! I love you so much Ashton. I hope you know that. I'll support you no matter what."

"Thanks mom, I love you too. I smile and we eat the rest of our dinner, thank my mom and dad again, and head for home. Today went much better than I had planned. I feel better knowing that my parents accept me. I feel... Satisfied.
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A/N

Ohhhh!!! How did you like this chapter? Pretty good? Satisfying? I hope so since I had writers block for this story for a while. It's good to be back! Sorry it took so long to update. I've been busy and stressed. Hope you enjoyed this! Hopefully I'll update again soon. No promises though ;)