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IX

     Jake walked out of the building. Yes, it hurt him to say that to her. Yes, he still loved her but he had to be real with himself. He couldn't keep thinking that she would suddenly love him again. She had made him feel worthless, as if he didn't mean anything and had no real value. She dragged him so down that he wasn't even sure when he started to loose himself to make her happy. He always put her first, which lead to his downfall.

He sighed as he crossed the street, with no real destination in mind. He felt a weight lifted from his shoulders, not all of it. But what small amount he did feel relieved about made him happy. He truly didn't know where he was walking to or what he was going to do but for now the way the wind blew in his face, the way it moved his hair and the way it smelled so fresh. He was going to enjoy this for now.

He ended up on the rooftop of his dorm, he had decided that he wanted to go back to his dorm but instantly missed the smell of the air so he decided to just go outside for a while longer. He watched as the building lights started to look like tiny stars over the horizon. The farther away the buildings were, the more stars he saw; not to mention when they bounced off the water. He felt free, with no worries. He could finally begin to put his life back into perspective. His friends, his family, his job, everything. Oh my god, he had even forgot about his labs.

The labs were his biggest dream, he wanted to be able to lead one and the experiments just like a real doctor and he finally had that chance. He had put in so much time in the last final weeks into the labs that he was now offered the position he wanted. Jake was accomplishing his dreams, and even if it hurt for him to admit, he was glad that Nuri had broke up with him. If she hand't, then he started thinking, maybe he wouldn't have put in so much time. Effort yes the time no because he would then start to worry about her and her career and start to overlook his. And he wouldn't be able to really do anything about it because that's what their relationship always was. He sacrificed and followed while she decided and demanded.

Nuri still watched the door, as if her staring at it would suddenly bring him back. She wanted him to come back to her. She wanted to explain everything to him so that they could start over. If she could have started over and was given the chance to go back in time, she'd never leave him. He was perfect. Always worried about her and her career, about her needs and what she wanted. He had her on a pedestal and she let that go?

She couldn't really figure out why she let him go. Up until before he was here, she was sure it was because she cared for him. Because she wanted him to focus on his career. Because she loved him and wanted him to make even more money. But now, she really didn't even know if she really broke up with him for his own good or for hers. She got up, making peace that he wouldn't come back that night. And could she blame him? She made her way into the bathroom to shower, she wanted to let the water fill her senses and hopefully distract her mind.

Nuri was soon disappointed as she laid in her bed. Realizing what Jake felt when she texted him that night. Every single noise made her raise her head and hope that it was him. She couldn't sleep, every time she closed her eyes her thoughts and feelings made a carnival in her head, making it not only hurt but for her eyes to shoot open and stare at the ceiling and think. Think about him and their relationship. She missed how attentive he was of her, how he would always try to surprise her, how he would drop everything at the moment she needed him. It was just him, she missed him.

Nuri got up the next day, puffy eyes and a horrible headache. She walked into the bathroom and almost Burt out crying when she saw her own appearance. Deciding to try and at least look decent since she did have to go to school. Which worked, at least she was able to cover her eyes and look somewhat put together, even if inside she was hurting. While trying to get rid of her headache she grabbed her bag and left for school.

Jake woke up in a different mood, yes he felt hurt. But this hurt was different, he didn't feel like he did couple of months ago. He was hurt but he was okay. He would get over this, he had bigger things to worry about. He even decided that instead of his usually empty stomach and coffee, he'd actually eat. He almost never used his kitchen, unless Ari was here, but today he was going to cook. 

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Word Count: 890

YUHHHH

Okay so the last chapter before the end!! And it seems like Nuri cares more about Jake now. Like he was always her safe option but now she's actually hurt by his feelings. But Jake seems totally okay, well kinda. Maybe they'll make up in the next chapter?

Stay Safe y'all

~K