My Secret

Chapter 1

CHAPTER 1 

I'm Erica the girl whose face is never seen. I'll tell you why. 

It started when I was in the 6th grade. It was the day after my dad's funeral. I remember it was an autumn day, perfectly sunny, leaves blowing everywhere. My mother and I were standing in front of my dad's tombstone. I remember the conversation we had. "Erica." Mother said.

I looked up into her eyes and saw sadness, disappointment, and most of all, anger. I didn't show signs like what she did. I simply said, "Yes, mom?" She then said something any other confused mother would say after they've lost their husband or lover. She said, "Why is the sky so sunny and bright, when peoples' hearts are so dark and sad?" She turned to face me and said she knew what I was feeling. I asked her what she was feeling and she replied, "Same as you. Disappointment, anger, and sadness. Anger you hold to yourself because you feel like this is your fault. It's not, Erica, it was just his time. Disappointment because, well, you're probably wishing you had done more for him before his final hour. Sadness because you are wandering so deeply in your mind thinking of ways you can get him back, but realize one thing- you can't. Well, at least that's how I feel. Tell me you feel the same way, pumpkin." 

I didn't know what to say to her. My mother had just poured her feelings out to me and for me to stand there and say nothing, that's worst than horrible. It's dispicable! 

Right before I had the chance to say anything she grabbed me in a tight hug and cried softly into my shoulder. We stood that way for a while. After a while she got back up. Her eyes were bloodshot red. She looked at me and said, "Hija, you don't have to say anything, nothing at all. It's ok, I know." She pulled me back closer to her and cried again, while I the new fatherless child, stood straight-up, with no emotion or sadness. Just a stony expression.

A/N: What do you think so far? I know theres not really much to it, but it's good so far right? I know the grammar is probably all wrong, but hey what you gunna do? Besides, I'm only.... Not telling