Finding Myself | A Jamie Benn Fanfiction

Mistakes

My eyes open slowly and I yawn, stretching my arms and legs. I check my phone to check the time and it's almost eight o'clock. Jamie must be wondering where I am. These past two days have been only about Tyler, and I actually miss being around Jamie. He tried to make plans with just the two of us and I blew him off. Tyler was sick, but still that's no excuse not to reschedule.

I guess I've been so worried about our "almost" kiss that messed up my head. I didn't plan on telling Tyler about it, because it was nothing. Right?

I check over my shoulder to check on Tyler. He's still sleeping so I decide to leave, giving him a gentle kiss on his forehead.

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"Hey, Jamie. I'm back!" I place my purse and jacket down on the table. I hear footsteps behind me.

"Hey. Is Tyler feeling better?" He asks and grabs a water out of the fridge. He walks over and hands it to me.

"Yeah, I think so." I tell him and take the water from him. "Thanks."

"You were gone for a long time." He says and stands across the table from me.

"Tyler and I fell asleep, but when I woke up- he was still sleeping, so I thought I would just leave." He slowly nods his head. He still looks somewhat upset about earlier.

"So... Why don't we do our movie night since I'm back?" His eyes light up and he flashes his bright smile. "Sounds good."

He goes and puts on a random movie on Netflix and I go to change into a t-shirt and sweatpants. I put my hair up into a ponytail and come back downstairs, sitting next to Jamie.

"What's first?" I ask, moving slightly closer to Jamie.

"You're favorite... The Notebook."

"Yay! Thanks, Jamie!" I hug him and place my head on his shoulder.

"Only for you, Jade." He laughs and starts the movie.

As the movie plays, I start to think about Tyler and Jamie. I really like Tyler, but ever since that incident with Jamie, I could picture us together. I glance up at Jamie, trying not to be too obvious - but I'm not discreet enough, because Jamie looks down at me.

I can't get myself to draw away from his gaze, his eyes mesmerizing me. I feel him leaning closer, stopping just before his lips touch mine. His hands gently guide my lips to his and they touch. I feel sparks of electricity running through my lips and throughout my entire body. His lips move against mine in sync, almost as if neither of us could pull away.

He moans under my touch and the kiss begins to become more heated, my hands running through his hair, slightly tugging it.

The first thing that comes to my mind is Tyler. How could I possibly do this to him?

"Stop." I demand against his lips.

"What's wrong? Did I do something?" He asks worriedly.

"I forgot about Tyler." I groan and sit back on the couch, placing my face in both my hands. "Oh my gosh, how am I gonna tell him?" I whine, Jamie wrapping his arms around me, pulling me into a hug.

"Don't touch me." I push him away and leave the room, tears streaming down my face. I messed up, terribly. I run up the stairs and lay down on my bed.

I can't believe that I actually have feelings for Jamie. I mean, Jamie.... My best friend that I've known forever. In the moment, maybe it wasn't a mistake..... but now, I think it made me realize that I love him.