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I GAVE EVERYTHING TO YOU. I GAVE MY BREATHS AND I GAVE MY LOVE AND MY HATE AND EVERY EMOTION IN ME, JUST SO YOU COULD BE FEEL MORE ALIVE THAN I DO. SO WHY . . . WHY IS IT THAT WHENEVER I SEE YOU KISS ANOTHER GIRL, I FEEL LIKE MY BONES ARE GRINDING TOGETHER AND MY MUSCLES ARE IMPLODING INTO A MILLION PIECES AND MY HEART IS SLOWING DOWN BECAUSE IT'S TEARING ITSELF APART JUST LIKE A BLACK HOLE?

OH DARLING, WHEN I SAW YOU ALL IN BLACK WITH WHITE POWDER STAINING YOUR CLOTHES, I LIT UP MY (CIGARETTE) AND PRETENDED IT WAS THE SMOKE THAT MADE MY EYES EXHALE THEIR HURT DOWN MY CHEEKS AND ONTO THE COLD, COLD FLOOR THAT HAD ONCE BEEN OUR REFUGE. I SAW HER GO UP TO YOU, WITH HER PUPILS AS BLACK AS MY HEART, CARRYING A BAG FILLED WITH YOUR DEATH AND OFFERING IT TO YOU. YOUR FACE LIT UP LIKE YOU WERE A CHILD IN A CANDY STORE THAT WAS FILLED WITH AN ARRAY OF ECSTASY.

AND LITTLE DID YOU KNOW THAT ON THE SAME NIGHT, MY CLOTHES WERE STAINED WITH WHITE POWER TOO.

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