confession (Yizhan)

part:31

What is happening with me? Why do I feel pain? Why do i always get hurt? Why me? My body is burning up, and it seems like I am getting sick...my mind, and my heart is not co-operating with me....I was not like this back then...I was very strong person...but now why I feel so pathetic? Have I gone crazy already...I really want someone to be with me. I really want someone to hug me right now. I feel so lonely . I feel so empty right now... my head is paining, and my heart hurts..."

Xiaozhan said to himself as he was sitting in a taxi...

After some minutes, zhan arrived at the house.. he was so tired he opened the door hurriedly as he put down his bag somewhere on the floor as he went inside his room and lay down on bed... he was looking at the ceiling as his tears started flowing from his eyes....

He closed his eyes as he removed the tears from his eyes...he again looked up as he said

" Why do I feel bad when I have no right to feel that way? Does it matter who yibo dates or not? Why do I care about his choice. Why does it affect me a lot? It's not like I have a great bond with yibo or Seungyoun. But my heart really hurt whenever I think about them, and I wonder why?"
Zhan said as he kept looking at the ceiling

" I am afraid I might go crazy if I kept on thinking about them. It is better for me to stop thinking about them. I need to take rest for at least an hour... I want to forget all of this.."

Zhan said as he closed his eyes...zhan was so tired and his body was burning he took out the blanket and rapped around his body as he started shaking...he tried to fall asleep, but he couldn't sleep properly after some minutes finally he manage to fall asleep

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At university
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Yubin, after zhan left from there , entered the class... As he entered the class, he saw yibo sitting on his bench, which makes him feel weird as he didn't expect to see yibo there.... he sat beside yibo as yibo didn't look at him....yibo kept on looking at the professor who is currently teaching them about marketing...

Yubin looked at yibo, giving a questionable look as he pat yibo shoulder...

"Yoo, why are you sitting here?
Yubin asked

" Why I can't sit here?
Yibo asked, looking at the professor

"What if I say no?"
Yubin said.

" I just sat here to know about zhan Health."
Yibo said

" He went home as he was not feeling good."
Yubin said

" All alone?? You should have called me. I could drop him in his house...what if he faint down in the middle of the way? "
Yibo said

" Why? I thought you already cut ties with him, so I didn't bother to call you."
Yubin said as he rolled his eyes on him

" You're really an idiot."
Yibo said as he looked at yubin angrily

" ya I am.. and please don't sit here.. I don't want Seungyoun to make a scene here..."
Yubin said

" Shut up and listen what the professor is saying."
Yibo said as he felt annoyed ...

" ya ya,"
Yubin said as they started paying attention to the professor

Time skipped to end of university
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It's now 2 o'clock, yibo, and seung is on the way home... seung was playing some game as yibo was in a little tense as he was looking at his cell phone all the time....Seungyoun did notice yibo looking at phone but he didn't said anything as he was busy playing game ...After some minutes seung when he saw yibo at the same position he couldn't help as he said